Can't go on

[Mynx537]

I keep feeling low and it's really making me feel terrible.

- I was diagnosed with primary hypothyroidism in Jan 2014. Endocrinologist has said I have clinical presentations of hyperpigmentation along with weight loss but an adrenal test has shown I do not have adrenal fatigue despite losing weight and showing hyperpigmentation. So that has made me think I am making all of this up.

- I left my job over a year ago due to how poorly I have felt along with the fact that my boss did not understand my illness. Looking back I did not have to leave my job at all as I could have received support/help but the surgery I was previously registered with did not diagnose me with hypothyroidism, only generalised anxiety/depression. It was only when I was found to have hypothyroidism and after I had left my job months later that I could have contacted my employer's human resources department to be better accommodated.

- My boyfriend does not believe in mental illness even though he himself suffered depression in the past. He does not like me taking anti-depressants/SSRIs and does not like it when I go to the doctor about ongoing problems I have.

- I was signed up with 2 health forums, both of which another member was signed up with. She has accused me of lying to other people as I omitted reasons why I did not take my thyroid medication. It was due to the above reasons as well as having to treat the adrenal issues first before thyroid ones that I stopped taking my medication.

I now feel as though my reasons are completely unjustified and I feel like I should be locked up somewhere right now.

Thanks

Jo xxx

[Mynx537]

Hi Pamela thanks for your reply.

I'm just willing to keep going every day because I know that's what I'm capable of.

My doctor does not see me again until another 2 weeks time. I have weight issues too (underweight) and he has put me on antidepressants. Going out for walks helps to clear the air and make me feel better and I might do that later on today.

Jo

[CRSeaside]

Hi Jo!  Health problems are a real drag. Other people's opinions shouldn't matter, but I understand when not feeling well, it's hard to be objective.
  What are you willing to do now?  This day?  Just move forward. Get the best possible professional advice. Then decide what's best. It really doesn't matter what helps. Helps. If meds help, take them. It will be worth it when you feel better.  Keep posting!  Pamela