Dealing with depression for 10 years.

[Tnc1016]

I'm pregnant with baby number 2. With my son I don't remember being depressed much at all but with this baby I just feel so down and out most of the time. I had complications the first 4 weeks. And there have been issues with the father of the baby. Since we have started talking again, my depression has eased up, but I still get scared and insecure that we're gonna go back to the way things were and he's gonna leave again. Idk what to think most days.

[remar]

CBT is cognitive behavioral therapy.
That's great news! I'm really glad your boyfriend is being supportive. Having a child, one on the way and also dealing with depression must be so very hard.
Ask your therapist about CBT.  

[Tnc1016]

I don't know what cbt is. And I have seen a therapist since I was 14. My boyfriend has been more and more supportive lately. He tries to distract my mind. He knows what I've been going through and been through in my life. He also knows depression. I went through one of the toughest time with him last year.

[remar]

Are you saying that you have been in counseling? If so, were you dealing with a therapist that does CBT? It's a really good type of therapy.
Maybe you can print out some info on depression to give to your family and friends. Maybe it will help them understand what you're going through. It really is hard for someone to understand unless they are either going through it or have been through it.

[Tnc1016]

I do have some friends and family, but they don't even know me and the father are talking because they hate him that much. My son is 4. And it is very stressful. His dad gets him 6 days a month. That's all. The friends and family I hav also doesn't understand depression. I have thought about counseling but if it hasn't helped in 10 years why would now be any different?

[remar]

Do you have any other support besides the father of the baby? Your family, friends?
I can understand why you would be feeling depressed. You're most likely  also stressed with one child and another on the way on top of problems with the father.
Is there any way you could get in to counseling?