Depression OR just a fear of? please help.

[eman90]

hi my name is elliott and this is my first post in the depression forum.

I should probebly start off by sayin that i have troubles with anxiety, not everyday, but sometimes when i think i might vomit or when i have to adapt to a new situation (ie new job, class, school).  College just started a week ago and now i feel anxious because most of my friends moved away to college and im stuck here at the community college for a year still living with my parents until i pass this year.  I really miss high school because i used to have something to do ev I hery night with my friends and i had such good times.  At the end of high school i reldeveloped my anxiety disorder and delt with it pretty well over summer.  College is starting and i now have a  new fear now and thats a fear of becoming depressed.  The problem is that i can't really decide in my head if im becoming depressed or not.  I dont really know if im sad or not i can't make up my mind. these thoughts about depression however, seem to be fleeting as they don't stick around that often.  The thoughts are more like my self picturing my situation or near furture as being depressed like when im afraid of throwing up i picture myself throwing up in that situation but not actually throwing up.  so just to state again i have a huge fear of becoming depressed/suicidal and i don't know if its just a fear or if its actually happening can anyone relate? please help

[eman90]

thank you very much for your input i might also add that for my anxiety i was given mirtazapine(rameron) and i was not depressed or had any thoughts about depression but 2 or 3 weeks after taking the mirtazapine i started feeling this way so my doctors taking me off the mirtazapine.  Has anyone else taking this drug have the same story?
It just seems logical to me that if the chemicals in your brain arent messed up to begin with that taking a drug that messes with them could cause problems.  thanks again for the help.

[Dreamsie]

You're just anxious of a lot of things, which is understandable. New beginnings are hard and not having your friends around you to support you makes it harder.

Now about the question whether you're depressed or not; I personally think you give it too much thought. In my experience, people who are clinically depressed (that means it has been diagnosed by a family doctor or psychiatrist and you're being medicated or receiving counseling for it), generally experience very different physical manifestations, such as lack of motivation, feeling tired, over eating or not eating enough, not being able to get out of bed in the morning, insomnia at night, etc.

Do yourself a favour and go on wikipedia.org and do some personal research, educating yourself is always a good way to broaden your understanding of the topic.
Having something else to do also distracts you from any depressing thoughts.

Now when it comes to dealing with your anxiety, try learning some breathing techniques. If you're a switched on person you can probably find some relaxing breathing techniques, yoga or medications on the internet. Otherwise go have a chat with your family doctor.