Depression back.

[christineyvette]

Hi guys, so my parents split up and my mom moved out and I am not dealing with it very well AT ALL. I have to leave the house to visit my mom while she's at her parents till she gets her own place. She's my rock. She's been to every hospital, doctor appointment, phychiatrist, therapist you named it since I was 8 and diagnosed with depression. I'm almost 22 now and I'm on disability currently because I cannot work. I am a mess. I can't sleep, eat, I even stayed in bed for 3 days straight only leaving for my pills downstairs. After almost a year of being free from self harm I relapsed and my dad found me in the bathroom with some pretty bad cuts and burns all up my arm. I REFUSED to go back to the hospital. I already been in there for a week back in march after trying to overdose and take my life. I miss my mom so bad and want her home but she can't be around my dad cause he's verbally abusive to her. I just wanna cry. I've lost about 5 pounds, my skin is a mess. I'm tired all the time but can't sleep and I haven't had a shower in two days cause I just can't get out of bed. My serequel isn't knocking me out like it used too so I can't sleep Even on that. Please tell me it gets better. I just want my mom back. I'm not used to this and it's too much. I'm not suicidal but I'm just plain tired. I'm going to see my GP on Wednesday. He's the only doctor I have seeing as therapy is hard to find here. Thank you for listening.

[witheredrose]

Yes! Hang in there, and give your mom a chance to get things in order for herself, as I am sure this is a struggle for her as well. And I bet she wishes just as much as you do, that you guys could be together again. If you need to talk about anything else, dont be afraid to come here and do so!

[christineyvette]

I've been talking to her on the phone and text and I've visited a few times. I think once she gets settle in I will move in. My dad like you said wasent there like she was cause he worked a lot but he came to some appointments but he never got me to where I am like my mom did. I'm trying to stay strong . Thank you.

[witheredrose]

I am sorry about your situation, but I believe it will get better! I am sure that as soon as your mom finds her own place, and her current situation improves, things will start to improve for you from there because then you can stay with her for long periods, or maybe even for good! I think you just really need your moms support back, I take it your dad has never really supported you like your mom does? You miss your mom like crazy, she is your rock and has been there for you through everything, and I think your feeling lost right now without her. Hang in there, and keep visiting your mom as much as possible. Do things together with her, and when she finds her own place, see about moving in with her! I wish you so much luck, and I really hope things will get better (no doubt they will!). Just hang in there and give your mom a little time to get back on track herself, and see what happens from there!! HUGS!