Do i have depression?

[doomsDAYisComming]

i am 14 and i have 7 councelers, and a school counceler. i have recently overheard my school counceler talking to my mom saying i have sever depression, and that i am showing every side afect of depression. i go to bed at 8pm and cannot get to sleep untill 4am in the moring then i will wake up at 9am, i havent been hungary in 13days but i have been forcng myself to eat, i am not intersted in any of the things i use to do, i feel sad i want to cry all the time for no reason, it is rare i am happy, i have no energy, i have taken an intest in blood and death, i have been recently having suscideal thourghts, i have lost 3kg in a week, and i sit in my dark room all day thinking of death. my mom thinks i have depression but refuses to take me to a doctor, and get put on medication. sever of my teachers have been putting in complaints all i do is draw death. i have been recently cutting my wrist and arms, legs. when my mom found out i got bared from talking to any of my friends, so i cut deeper i want to tell mom how i feel but she wont listen to what i have to say. i only have two things to live for my cat zooky and my boyfriend gaby, we have been together for nearly 10 months he has helped me get out of depression but recently his mom and little brother and him had to leave hom now i can only see him every 2 weeks, i havent seen him for 3 months and i cant cope. im crying all the time. and i have mom going around telling every one im depressed. im too young to go to the doctors but if i could i would but mom wont let me. i just want to die and gaby is the only one who cares for me. i want help please

[whodunnit]

Hi,

What you describe sounds very much like severe depression to me. What doesn't make sense is if you mother says it is so why she does not seek treatment for you.

Your cutting is clearly getting worse so you will be in an Emergency Ward soon where you can seek treatment your mother cannot avoid. You can go to Emergency before that and tell them the truth. That you are suicidal, depressed and cutting. So don't cut more to get there OK, they will believe you.

Cutting is a permanent problem for you and you can only regret it in the future as you mark or disable parts of yourself. Please stop.

Do you have any idea what has caused you to feel this way?

[blondie337]

hi am very sorry to hear what you are going through, is there anything which could of caused this? i had a tramatic experience at the start of the year and went through some of wht u are going through now, and no one understands they think u are mad but they dnt understand! tht u have started cutting your self and having suicdal thoughts u need to see a doctor! i recentley got help frm my doctor am put on tablets to help me have a long way to go but hopefully will get there! pls get help u will get worse and maybe do somthing silly like i did your life is worth living! if i can help any more pls let me knw, take care :)

[ILADVOCATE]

What you are describing might very well be depression. Only a psychiatrist could provide a diagnosis but seeing one might be helpful and your parents shouldn't discourage it. Ask one of the school counselors if they could make a referral or if there is an outpatient walk in clinic that someone could help you go to. If you feel that depressed or have ideations to engage in behavior that is self destructive then it would be worth seeking help and the good thing is that depression is very treatable and someone should be able to help you.