Don't know what to do

[Brightonbelle67]

I have always had a low self being and hide most of my lowness from the world my mum died 2 years ago and that was hard and a shock she was only 62 then my dad died jan this year 64 another shock I suffered after mum died and it took a year and half to come to terms with that now my dad is gone to I did hit a low not sleeping very down lost but with him living far away and not seeing him that offen it seemed easier it's took a few months but me I have hit wall crying for no reason worthlessness headaches sleeping any chance I get nothing seems to help shopping loads don't float my boat does at time then dumped in spare room I make excuses for my self with my aldult kids so I can go home and sleep and not let them see me cry when I'm alone I hate it when I can have company I avoid it my moods are up and down and this can go on for days then I wake up head not so heavy and lifted I am shocked that I have a good emotion I went to docs today to speak to him as I have had the dark thoughts when hitting the bottom and he said to me after I finished trying to explain after the out bursts of emotions and crying said what do u want me to do I only have 10 mins i felt devistated and worthless I wish I hadn't of bothered left with tablets told to come back in two weeks  I feel such a fool that my most intermite feeling are logged on a computer as depressed with suicidal thoughts

[4Maddie44]

Yes, my doctor does this too.  That is what BrightonBelle's doctor should have done too.  Some doctor's care more than others.

BrightonBelle, do you think you can go back and see another doctor?

[Anneinside]

At every appointment, my pdoc has me fill out the PHQ-9 which alines with the DSM criteria for depression. It says over the last two weeks have you:  the rating scale choices are none of the time, some of the time, most of the time, all of the time. From this, she can get an idea of how depressed you are and if you are having suicidal thoughts. The final section asks how much it impairs your life.

I like it that they check depression presence and intensity all the time. There are only questions for bipolar that say "have you ever" rather than "in the last two weeks" so it doesn't establish how you feel now.

[4Maddie44]

Doctors can be so unfeeling.  Usually, if after two weeks you still feel the same, the doctor will more than likey say you have depression.

What are the pills he prescribed?  Please do go back, and if possible, see another doctor.  There is a questionnaire my doctors use to assess if you have depression.  

I must have reams of comments on my doctor's computer.  Had depression for 20 years.  

Keep going back until they listen.  I have found anti-depressants do help me.  Please keep in touch with us here, as we understand how you feel.  

[mammo]

I'm so sorry for all you're enduring.  It does sound like you have depression which makes me wonder what the medication is your doctor gave you.  If it is an antidepressant then you're on the right track.  You should also consider some therapy to help you cope better and determine if this is all a result of losing both parents....which would send anyone into a depression!  There are grief counselors who can help you as well. Let me know what medication your doctor gave you and let''s go from there!  You're not alone and there is so much help for you, so stay strong.