Today I felt the happiest I've been in a long time. I got to spend a full day with the most beautiful boy. It's taken me so long to realise how happy he makes me, but he's my best friend. And I vowed that I'd never fall for him. But what makes it worse, my best friend also really likes Ben. As pathetic and dramatic as it sounds, when I started going through depression, he's the only thing that kept me wanting to avoid comitting suicide. He used to like me, but I blew that chance. I wish everybody knew exactly who I'm talking about..