thank-you and no i havent but that also runs in my family so maybe i should
I want you to know, that I understand how you feel. I have bipolar II, and when I get depressed, it's usually for no apparent reason, but it doesn't mean the pain isn't real and your feelings aren't valid. Have you ever asked a doctor if bipolar is what's causing your depression?
You're right, it seems like no one understands. All my normal-headed friends get upset when I tell them, there's nothing they can do to help. They all tell me about times they were depressed, but I don't think depression is even the right word to describe it. It's just complete pain and hopelessness. Every thought sinks to the bottom of your soul, and hope no longer holds meaning. Everything just feels like rain.
All you can really do during times like this is hang on, and know that the storm will cease. Though it's hard to imagine right now, the sun will come out again, and the flood will subside.
Sending good thoughts your way. I know you will make it through.
I will consider what you have said but as of now i dont have the time to be helping others. When im going to both school and work so i have zero days off. Life has many problems in it and i was never trying to say my problems were the worst in the world or to even said like a wimp. I know there are people who would kill for my position and im thankful im not them.
but at the time im in an up state and what i mean by that is I feel good and confident
Hi there!
I see you are not having the time of your life, eh?... I read all your message and i am still a little bit lost... There were lot of feelings, questions, impressions that i don't know how to take them to help you... Besides i think you were just talking.
However, I think you should get some help, someone to talk, to have like a guide, because for exaple the problems with your mam are very difficult to change and maybe you only need to understand her, forgive her, pray for her and focus on your own life. Perhaps what it will help is to work for others, then to see and face others problems really help to see how insignificant our problems are, you know, specially if you feel lost. Do something for others, work as a volunteer serving food for poor people, or building houses, etc... notice the real problems and then maybe you will see actually what is going on with yourself...
I hope it helps you...