Thank you sooo soo much! I haven't been able to talk to anyone about this and it's so nice to hear genuine feed back:)
I think I will see a therapist because I know some way my mother will find out:/
Also did you when you were a teen feel the need to cry all the time like you were continuously sad and emotional?
There are ALOT of birth control options out there. I would go back to the doctor and switch if I were you. I was on Desogen when I was younger and that one worked really well for me. No PMS, mood improved, and I had very light or sometimes no periods. My doctor switched me to Ortho-Cyclin, which caused me to break out and become depressed, so I went back to Desogen.
For the last six years, I've been on the Mirena IUD and I absolutely love it. I have no periods, no PMS, nothing. I don't know how it's affected my mood, but I don't think it's made it worse. It's probably helped because I don't have to deal with the TOM anymore. I don't know if this would be an option for you, but I would recommend looking into it, because it lasts for 5 years and you don't have to worry about remembering to take a pill everyday. I wished I had it put in sooner.
I probably was depressed when I was a teen and I wanted to go see a counselor, but my mom was against it. She was concerned about people finding out and thinking I was 'nuts'. I used to self-harm too, and I didn't tell her because I was afraid of her reaction. I don't think you should tell your mother if you think she's going to react badly, because that would only makes things worse. But I would look into going to a counselor or therapist. Perhaps you can talk to someone at your school, or look into someone who works on sliding scale. Give them your cell phone number so they won't call home and tell your Mom about it (this happened to me. Unfortunately, this was in the pre-cell phone era). You could also go to your primary care doctor and see if there's any therapists he/she recommends.
Hope I was able to help you in some way and you feel better soon.
Oh really! Thank you for your advice, I really need it right now.
However I'm not sure how to discuss this with my mum as she hasn't Amy idea that I've suffered depression and self harm, this is the first I've admitted it. I just don't know how to talk to her about it, she's so judgmental and I'm scared for what she might think of me.
They began about 2 months after I began this pill, however I'm taking the pill named Yasmin, which is meant to be the best or you.
Did all of your symptoms start when you started this particular birth control pill? If so, then you need to see your Gynecologist and get an a different pill. There are many others to choose from.