I don't know how i'm feeling anymore!!!!

[gillianl]

I'm feeling really down tonight, i was given 2 weeks of fluoxetine on Friday as my doctor thinks i'm suffering from anxiety or depression.  This has been going on since i was 17 years old and i'm only now looking for a solution to the emotion changes at the age of 25.  

I need IVF and was told by my doctor i would be given treatment unless i got my BMI down from 37 to 25 which i am finding extremely difficult.  My sister is due her baby boy in 13 days and yes i am pleased but it also hurts to know that i may never be given the chance to have children if i don't lose the weight or find £10000 for treatment.

I am also plannign my wedding which is adding to the strain, i just don't know how to get myself back in control, stop the crying, start losing the weight, stop stressing.  My family don't speak to me as much as they used to and i feel it's because i moved further away, my partner works shifts so we are like passing ships sometimes

i just feel so lonely and had to vent!!!

[beanxx]

You can only do one thing at a time doll. first of all YOU come first. Get ur depression looked at, I have been on anti depressants for ten months now and its great feeling stable for once. I was on fluoxetine at first but did not agree with me at all I had terrible mood swings and felt as if I wanted to snap at everyone for the slightest thing. It would take the tablets about 3 - 4 weeks to work and before you start feeling a little bit better so thats why a dont understand why your doctor would only give you two weeks worth. or have you to go back to get another two weeks worth once they have ran out? Just think about number one and maybe you could prostpone the wedding to a ;later date once you are ready to move on with another 'task' if you want to call it that. cheer up!!! Everything will fall into place in the end and all you need to do is eat your three meals a day and a light snack in between and cut out chocolate sugary drinks and high fat crisps and ul see for urself the weight you could lose with just doing that!

[capegirlnoshoes]

It's great that your doctor is helping you, but has (s)he talked to you about therapy/counselling?  You've got a lot of stressors right now, and when depression/anxiety is caused mainly by psychosocial stressors, therapy is at least as good as any drug.  I'm not saying don't take the drug, because often people need both.  But I suggest you ask about cognitive-behavioural therapy (CBT) which is the best kind of counselling to deal with everyday stressors and try to prevent further dips in mood even when you're feeling fine.  And just having a good counsellor is useful so that you can just have someone to vent to.  
Also, have you had blood tests to determine whether your symptoms have a physical cause?  that's very important, particularly since some physical problems can cause both weight gain and low mood.