Bassically, im depressed, i used to go to a psychologist but i had to stop because it got too expensive, i havent had time to go to a psychiatrist yet for medication... I by times start shaking, why am i ? Im way too stressed out because of school and i am also in a very bad mental state, i self harm (cutting to be more specific), i have constant passive suicidal thoughts, and i also rarelly eat to make me feel starved. I eat today, and yet here i am shaking, i do feel like dying right now, i feel like i just want to die and i wanna cry, i wanna cry so much. Im also trying to stop cutting, and im trying so hard but everything seems to just be useless. Please help asap.