Can anyone suggest somthing?

[Shayne1982]

I have been suffering my entire life with some sort of anger and depression issue.
I have never been diagnosed with anything, but feel the need to learn all I can before approaching my doctor about this...
I get these violent mood swings...where I just want to hurt whatever is getting on my case...I want to yell, I want to punch...
The mood is there, but in most cases, the actions are not, and if I do violently lash out, it's at inanimate objects.
I do not normally want to hurt others, but I get entirely too mad, too easily, and I am scared that sooner or later I'm going to severely hurt someone, or worse....
I am depressed alot....I feel like nothing ever works out for me, and I cannot do anything without failing. I have been unable to sleep well for a decade....getting 2-3...4 hours at most of sleep per night. I get severely nervous in crowds, and meeting new people is very hard for me to do. I feel like my wife and family don't appreciate me. I feel like I don't do enough for them. I feel like there's not enough silence and peace in my life. I feel like I'm mean to everyone around me, but my wife says I'm not. I usually don't feel like doing anything at all.
In my mind, I constantly replay situations where people aggrivate me, and fantasize acting out violence. I replay deaths of loved ones I have seen leave me over the years. I can't remember happiness.
I can't cry....I can't FEEL happiness....
Any ideas?
Please............

[mammo]

I think you have some depression and anxiety issues going on.  I would see a psychiatrist and get into therapy for this.  There is so much help for you, which may involve medication, but you need and deserve a happier life!  You don't have to feel this way.  You're not alone with this, there are thousands suffering just as you are, or have at one time. I don't recommend you see your GP, a psychiatrist is more knowlegeable about the medications and which one would be best for you, and can refer you to a therapist.  If you make an appt. with a psychiatrist and just tell him what you told us, he will know what to do.  Please take the first step to getting your life back and being happy.  It's good that you recognize there is a problem, now take the necessary steps to getting back to normal.  All of us on the forum have been where you are, so stay with us as you go down the road to recovery, for support.  Take care..

[drifter0213]

try talking to a doctor to seek therapy