Hey
Ok, so to brief it up last year i went through a horrible divorce, my husband use to hit me etc etc now soon after i met a guy who made me laugh and we had a good time however the last 4 months i have felt lonley, depressed, and very suicidal, I cry and have panic attacks at night,
i have this terrible HIV phobia and sometimes relate it to the fact i do want to die! no one understands me, no one can give me the love i need and security. I am snappy, tired, don't wanna sleep when i do i can't breath and all so alone. I often think maybe just going would be the best thing possible.
Have tried to discuss this with my bf and friends but no one can help me. What do i do