I think u need a break fron your busy schedule....so things u like...find peace
Hi there, I know exactly how you feel
Sounds like my life in a nutshell. Up one minute down the next, life of the party or a total wet blanket. I can't really say that I've experienced blackout type lost time where I don't remember things, that sounds really worrysome. Are you taking any Meds or have you spoken to your Dr. About any of this. Have these symptoms/ depression only occurred in the last year or longer do you think? Has there been any specific event in your life in the last year that may have Triggered the way you are feeling now such as stress at work, home, family life, relationships,financial obligations ect. Any of these can weight far more heavily on ones mood than than you realize. At any rate don't be afraid to talk to a professional about this. It will help and you can begin to feel better. You are not alone in this and you've taken a great first step simply by asking a question here on this forum. Look around, read what others have said, you may find some answers about yourself in learning from others. I wish you the best and know that you can begin to find the answers you seek if you don't give up on yourself