Questions on Depression

[jimmyhoffa808]

I been having feelings of loneliness/insecurity. I say this because its a feeling that I remember having as a child. I am 29 years old and this feeling I get is similar to what I felt as a child of wanting my mother to be with me all the time. I don't know exactly how to describe it but it makes me feel terrible to my stomach and its very intermittent. Its usually when I'm not feeling good. Kind of like when a child gets sick, the child wants his/her mother near by to cater to them. Does anyone know if this is a symptom of depression or something else? Maybe anxiety? Is depression intermittent? Some days I feel totally normal and then sometimes for brief moments I will get that terrible feeling.

Any help is appreciated. Thank you.

[jimmyhoffa808]

I thought I would come back and update everyone. I want to apologize about the way I was interpreted. I do love my mother dearly but this is not about her. I think I have figured out what may be going on. When I was a kid I used to have separation anxiety. I couldn't stand when my mother left me. I thought the world was going to end when she left me at home alone with my father especially when I was sick. It's not to say my father was bad or anything its just that my mother catered to me a lot more. Anyway, I think because of what has been going on in my life at the moment, it has caused some of these anxiety fears to resurface. One of them is loneliness. I am alright being alone but occasionally I get a fear of being alone for brief moments then its gone. I stopped having this feeling years ago. I also get a feeling of helplessness and that I am going to die.

For the most part is seems these feelings are beginning to subside but I will keep you all posted because for the last couple months its been coming and going. Right now, this may be my longest streak of it going away so I will keep my fingers crossed. Thanks for reading and let me know if you have anything to add to this. Thank you.

[aaronwebvizards]

I don't find any depressing content in your life, but you miss your mother badly means you always wanted to be closer to her but unknowing you may have not been in your life or so, which makes you feel insecure or alone in your current life too. I would like to ask you is mother alive, if so, then talk to her spend good amount of time with her, make her realize that you are part of her. & if the case is opposite of all expectation then i would suggest you to make a good friend in your life with whom you can share all your feelings & can feel his / her warmth too. This way you an curb your loneliness from your life & stay happy ahead without any depressive feeling in mind.

[jimmyhoffa808]

hey mandy,

just out of curiosity, how old are you and when did your mom pass?

[mandy876]

I like that it is so sweet.  I have so many wonderful memories.  your friend. mandt876

[jimmyhoffa808]

Thank you too Mandy! I cherish my mother and father. I know they won't be around forever and I can't imagine life without them. But I like to remember something from a cartoon from my childhood called Land Before Time. Have you seen it? Anyway, the quote goes like this after Littlefoot's mother dies:

Rooter: Oh, it's not your fault. It's not your mother's fault. Now, you pay attention to old Rooter. It is nobody's fault. The great circle of life has begun. But see, not all of us arrive together at the end.

Littlefoot: What'll I do? I miss her so much.

Rooter: And you'll always miss her. But she'll always be with you, as long as you remember the things she taught you. In a way, you'll never be apart, for you are still part of each other.



So in a way, I think if you have those memories of what you've gained from the relationship with your mom, she will continue to live on...through you.

[jimmyhoffa808]

Your post was one I will never forget. Thank you for every word.