Suicide or not?

[moonlight22]

Is there anything wrong with thinking about harming yourself?  Sometimes I think of ways to end my life.  If I am on my way to work, as the train approches, I wonder, how much would it hurt? would I survive? would I want to survive?  I have thought about overdoseing, rat poision, and slitting my wrist.  I don't think I have the courage to do anything.  I don't really feel depressed, although I think I might have been at some time recently.  Sometimes I wish I would not wake in the morning.  Even when my moods are normal I get these thoughts.  Should I seek help.  By the way, I feel normal today, but I have thought about it.
Thanks

[blondie337]

hi, i am going through exctaly the same thing and have tried ending my life people dont understand how serious this is, when you are so depressed and you think there is no way out, when u try ending your life you dont really relise what you are ding your mind takes over! a few days ago i lost my friend he hung him self out side his pub i am devasted what stops me is my family and wht damage it will cause them. i wuldnt say its a phase you need help meds do help. ppl say get over i have told my mum but she doesnt understand she says why are u depressed only if she knew why, i am here if u need help :)

[moonlight22]

I understand what you all are saying.  But I would not want my family to know that I am in need of help.  What if they don't understand?  They would just laugh and ignore it...i think.  I would not want to tell anyone, that I am seeking help.  In the recent past, I have told some close friends, but when ever I talk about it, they change the topic or just say I need help and walk away.  Does no one see it in my eyes, cause I sure do.  Sometimes my mother, will say my eyes don't have the glow they used to.  I am only 21, could this just be a phase?

[Jaquta]

I don't necessarily think that it's wrong to think about it.  I think that questioning our existence can be healthy.  I do however think that if we become obsessed with self-destructive thoughts and/ or they affect our ability to function or live our life that we should seek professional help.
I think that a lack of courage indicates protective factors -hopefully one of which will be hope.
I personally think that you should see your family doctor or a psychiatrist.

Take care.

J

[angelina1982]

i feel alot like that,and not having friends arte family... it makes it hard. i have 2 kidsd, but 1 bipolar too and he been in and out the hospital. i understands, i wihs it all the time. i wish i could go to hospital, the kids dad say who going to watch them. so i try to bare it.. hang inn. huggs

[whodunnit]

Hi Moon,

You talk about it as if it is a normal thing to do. It's not. We only think about suicide when we see no alernative way to deal with our lives.

In mental health terms you have met the criteria to run, not walk, to the doctor's. Why? You are planning, not just thinking about it. You are considering methods and that is the red flag for needing help.

If these thoughts do come and go I can only think that the mood/thoughts may be hormonal rather than depressive as depression isn't here today and gone tomorrow. Once depression hits, it stays. Lighter and heavier periods for sure but it doesn't just leave as you suggest, as in being normal today.

You need to see a doc and take up therapy as suggested above.

By the way the not wanting to wake up is a key sign of a major problem, it indicates a state of mind.

[mammo]

ILADVOCATE is right on!  You need to get help, but also suicide may not be the end, it may just be the beginning of something much worse.  It is not a way out!  Think of all the people you love and who love you, and what it would do to them.  I lost a son, and would give anything to have him back.  This is a heartache like no other, don't do this to your parents.  You have a life to live, don't allow anything to take this away from you!