At a loss & feel far passed gone

[psychdegree]

I wrote last week about having a lot of things going on w feeling depressed. Well im not sure what this is going on right now. It seems like im stuck in a rut & im getting restless & frustrated and almost like im in a cage if that makes sense? I go to work, & now 4 some reason every1 has changed over the passed week..very rude to me & disrespectful. & treat me like im a slave and I have a degree higher than most there & do the smallest job probably possible. Then I come home & do the same thing everynight. I had to move back in w my parents after my fiancé spilt (which is in a condo) & I feel I get no privacy, very little peace & quite..i feel like im losing my mind! My doc cut my meds way down & im not sure if that has anything to do with it but it really doesn’t matter bc now he wont work with me. How can I fix this rut with out just running away (bc that’s not even possible) I just cant keep living this way. Im so exhausted and feel like I could fall right to sleep but cant bring myself to lay down. Has any1 been here b4 and had something help to get out of the cage they were in? I mean I take meds for my mood and anxiety (I have bipolar) but it seems like nothing is helping..nothing at all..

[psychdegree]

Thank you so much for your encouraging words. Yes it really is like a death..not only of him but the whole past life I had. Its all gone. & then everything else changing around me. I try my best to remember towards the end he treated me so badly I was pretty much by myself anyway, he wasn't there when I needed him etc. But that helps me not go back to him, but it doesn't help the actual change that I face everyday. I feel like sometimes I don't even know me anymore...

[TheLightSeeker]

It's funny-well not really- that you posted this, as I was researching some concepts for my upcoming online workshop, "Believe in the Impossible" and "How to Live from Your Highest Self" (not finalized yet and subject to changes), which reminded me how we -mostly unknowingly or rather unconsciously- create or own circumstances.
In other words our Outer World is a reflection of our Inner World.
And I had in mind, scenarios similar to yours where everything seems to be
wreaking havoc in our lives and how to address them in a more spiritual
way.
I have been there many years ago, in the "dark hole", discovered the "turning point" and managed to eventually crawl out of it and gradually ascend to higher consciousness.(Illness as a Path)

Listen psych, your separation form your fiance, probably had a greater emotional impact on you, clouding your mental state further and setting you back some.  Counselling might help. This is a very devastating event in your life, perhaps as devastating as death of a person close to you and you may need some professional help to deal with it effectively.

Really good advice from Crystal, however, you must give the benefit of the doubt to your doctor, as there he may have specific reasons to reduce your meds. As for the fact that he won't work with you, is unfortunately common
but still unprofessional and unfair to you.

I will leave you with the following quote, which I personally Love:

"Thanking Heaven even for our difficulties and misfortunes, is the best way to transform them. You will see your difficulties in a different light, as if you had wrapped them in a piece of pure gold."
--Omraam Mikhael Ainanhov--

Love & Light
Niko

[psychdegree]

Thank you for your help. Not feeling too well today but did want to say thank you for your encouraging words

[Crystal413]

Life sounds challenging right now. I can understand how you feel. For your dr to cut your meds at a time like this is irresponsible. Even more so the fact that he won't work with you. I would without a doubt get a new pdoc. It sounds like you need an increase or change in meds to get you thru this bad period. I know you said you were doing well before so hang in there and know that, that time will come again soon.

As for the office people, sometimes when we are feeling bad we pick up on things that we would normally not pick up on. Ignore their unkind behavior, hold your head up high, smile and keep walking. Say to yourself that's their problem, not yours. Who knows what's going on in their lives to make them miserable and feel that they need to lay it onto you and others.

You were doing really well once, you can do it again.