Hello, well ive been to therapy before and they said that I could possibly be bipolar after i explained what i go through. They gave me a trial for abilify which i didnt take because i was scared to. I was still depressed though and started smoking marijuana heavily, I hate that I made a dependance on the one drug thats not addictive. Not to long ago I felt really depressed and went home one day and started taking the abilify and got presecribed abilify, I took it everday for a while but was still smoking. I stopped taking it again and I was depressed just not that many days ago. Now I dont feel depressed but emotionless. I dont care about anything, things that use to depress me dont anymore and I have no wants and cant seem to get excited about anything. I think about the fact that i cant seem to feel anything all the time. I havent even had the want to smoke which is weird cause I would usually want to just for fun or to escape being depressed. Now i can just lay on my bed all day not having a want to do anything or having any feelings...what is this?