i have depression.. please help

[barbie_123]

i feel like i have severe depression.. ever since i was 8 my life has went downhill.. im 15 now, when i was 8 my mom died, when i was 9 my brother dies, when i was 10 my stepdad killed hisself, and when i was 11 my granny died... it was like a nonstop cycle of death. i have still not let it go. when i was in 8 grade i took pills and tried to kill myself. i got sent off for a week but that still did not help.. i have tried therapy it does not help me at all.. for some reason i just cant let my feelings out.. if i dont have a boyfrined i feel so alone and very unhappy... the only time i am happy is when im drinking or doing other things that hurt my body.. i have to be with my friends 24/7, but they do not understand me and they are so mean to me and they leave me out.. i dont know what to do.. my dad won't put me on medication because he thinks i'm to young.. please help me..

[innerchild09]

I am so sorry that you have been through so much. I think you need to do everything you can to get your dad to listen to how bad you are really doing. I know that its not an easy thing for him to hear but I think he needs to know that you are going through all this and that you really need some help.

[mandapanda928]

Yeah i have all of them too it's so hard to deal with i'm in behavioral therapy and that helps a lot along with talking about it so i would seek therapy. It's nothing to be ashamed of. If you ever have any questions message me, i'd be glad to help you. I feel your pain, and i'm so sorry you have to go through it.

[Anneinside]

Talk therapy, specially DBT, is used for borderline personality disorder. Some pdocs will also give antidepressants and other drugs to deal with mood symptoms.

[mammo]

I went thru the same thing where I lost several loved ones within a two year period so I know how you are feeling.  You need to talk, talk, talk....and starting with us was a big step!!  There is a lot in life we may never understand, but we have to keep going and make our lost loved ones proud of us.  You're going to emerge a much stronger and wiser person than most, due to these experiences.  You need to get your dad to listen to you....try putting all your feelings in a letter to him...everything!
Often as parents we don't want to accept that our child may be struggling with something, and when we read the words on paper we tend to hear more. If he still doesn't listen, go to your school counselor and let them know you need help.  They will get your dad involved and explain it all to him....and he won't be angry.  He just needs to somehow accept that all of this has impacted you deeply and you need help coping with it all...and who wouldn't??  Don't hang around people who are mean to you!  You don't ever want or need people like this in your life. Stop hurting yourself...you've been hurt enough.  Please get your counselor to listen to you....you're not the first to have talked to him about problems.  In the meantime talk to us...you can even do this privately.  If you have a relative you can talk to, try to get them to talk with your dad as well.  You're dad just doesn't seem to understand the seriousness of this and by getting others involved...he will. I'm so happy you shared with us and I'm so sorry for all you've endured.  Stay with us for support or just to vent, we're always here.  Big hugs to you.....

[barbie_123]

i looked up "borderline personality disorder" , and that sounds exactly like me.. from the emotional lability to anxionessto dissociation proneness. its crazy because i have like all of thos symptoms.. and i hate it.. is there any way to cure it?

[mandapanda928]

Wow you are a very strong person. I'm so sorry that all of this has happened to you, and i'm sure you've been depressed since you were 8 there is no one in the world that could go through all of that and not be depressed. When i was younger i tried to take pills to , to stop the hurt and the emptiness. But it's not the right way to go. The thing to do is to love yourself, and fight the fight that they couldn't be here to fight, make a life for yourself, and try to find things that make you happy. You sound like a hero to me. Your not to young for medication there are some that i'm sure you are, but if therapy isnt helping something needs to be. You cannot carry all of this on yourself. Your only one person, one strong person, but one person, dealing with the loss of loved ones. I'm thinking , and i'm not a doctor this is just my opinion , and by all means if this is what you do have this is not your fault and it's actually the most curable personality disorder I think.. It sounds like what i have which is called "borderline personality disorder" look up some of the symptoms online and see if any of them sound like you relate to them. . If not i really want you to get help and talk about it, and those don't sound like your friends , they sound like mean girls, I used to have to deal with that too i always felt like an outcast. It's very hard , i never want to be a lone either, it scares the crap out of me. But even if you just want to talk to me or whoever you feel comfortable with please do , don't hold it in. Your going to make it, and your going to be strong.

[zeppelin3]

you poor darling.  sounds like you have been through so much in your short life.  Depression is a lonely place to be, it feels like no one understands, and honestly if they havent been there themselves they dont understand. Have you actually sat down with your dad and told him how your feeling?? you need his help now more then ever, its hard enough being a teenager let alone having to deal with depression.  maybe talk to him about finding a support group where you can talk to other people in the same boat?? Believe it or not hun, your NOT alone, there are millions of people who feel just as lost and sad as you do