I have had depression since I was 15 yrs old. I was always atheltic and liked who I was but one day I woke up and the world was very different. It seemed like it was black and white and I became very fatigued and couldn't think properly. Nothing felt good anymore. Ever since then (17 yrs ago) I have still struggled with this illness. Now my main symptoms are never feeling good - it's as if my brain can't respond to pleasurable stimuli and i have pain in my temples and eyes everyday!! I hate feeling like this. I have no stress and if I didn't have this illness I would like my life.
This is an illness that has been running in my family - both my father and his grandfather had depression and committed suicide. I have tried many, many anti-depressants over the years but they all make me feel worse. Help!