What's causing this?

[lana_lynn20]

I'm not sure where to post this, Substance abuse/relapse Forum or in Depression Forum...so I will put it in both.

I was clean from OCs for about a month and was feeling great, back to my "normal self", I was truly excited to feel happy agian...But then I fell back into the abyss and felt like I wanted to die, so I began using again...very small amounts but enough to where I can function and do my daily routine and put on a fake smile and make everyone think I am fine...I dont wanna have to use to be able to function.  What made me fall back into depression like that...Its killing me inside, I dont wanna live like this anymore.

I have an appointment with my therapist on thursday, but I need you guys and your support until then

thanks to everyone for taking your time to help me,
Lana

[Kobuk]

Hi, I went to a dual recovery facility and it helped me.  They dealt with both addiction and depression.  This was 6 years ago.  I had one relapse this year.  I still see my psydoc and terapist and sometimes go to AA.  NA only meets once in a while here.  Good luck!

[ILADVOCATE]

If its an issue of substance abuse that has to be addressed first. That can easily set back your recovery. You should go to a dual recovery group for a person with substance abuse and depression. As well you can speak to your psychiatrist about your primary treatment. Google "Depression Central" for more information. But if you were feeling okay and had a relapse then its more the substance abuse issue although there might be more going on. Have a frank discussion with your psychiatrist about the whole issue and make specific plans and recovery goals.