I had a baby 15 months ago. He was born 2.5 months early.We spent a lot of time in hospitals, but he is fine now. He is a very healthy boy. When he was born, i did not feel like i was in a panic or stresssed . I did everything i had to do. My husband is very supportive and helped a lot. So i should not say that all what happened with my son, put me in a situation i am in now. I getting worse and worse now. I developed insomnia, after my son was 5 or 6months. I always was a light sleeper , but it got to the point that i can't sleep at all. Doctors gave some meds, that i take once in a while as i don't want to get addicted to sleeping meds. But despite that i became very angry,not happy , negative person. I started to feel that anger waves comes more often, and when it comes i scream, i ***** , i am a nasty person to my husband, and my son feels that . He is very difficult to feed, and it takes a lot of effort , time and energy. I losse patient, i feel like i just want to run out of the house and be alone. Every small things amkes me angry. I feel like after i had a baby i can't accoplish anything, i can't find time to go to the gym, i can't clean the house the way i used to . There is no time in a day to do things i need to do. I work part time, and that is the only place that i am happy, and relaxed. But all the things , all the work with the baby, cleaning, laundry, and no time makes me overwhelmed and angry. I bacame very depressed as my husband is not happy seeing me like this. I feel that i am destroying my family. I don't want to feel the way i feel. I want to be able to overreact, to be more calm. However when those anger waves comes, i can't stop. I feel i want to explode. I am very against taking medication , but i think i have to. I don't know what to do. I don;t want to be on meds and be so slow, no energy. I want to be healthy , active , have more energy with my son. But i want to be relaxed. I don't want my son to feel my bad energy. What should i do. What kind of medication are recommended. And why this is happening? Where is this anger coming from. I have never been this way.