thoughts about death,,

[rmoore]

Are other people troubled with thoughts about death?  I'm not scared of it, but I have thoughts shoot through my consciousness, sometimes 8-10 times a day of,"why don't you just kill yourself?" and it's like I have a conversation in my head.  I would never do it,,but it's annoying.  Sometimes it's worse than others, somedays it doesn't happen at all.  But there isn't a week that goes by that I don't have the thoughts.  Do other people have that but just not talk about it?

[nart]

you think you wouldnt kill your self but you think about it all the time ...i see what going down....i thought i wouldnt do that but i did...... i got my self in a whole heep of trouble...........sometime i wish i could trun back time. my suicide was the worst kind of way to go about it ...  i all most died......i was confused....i think about suicide every day all day... i think like what i would be if i didnt try to kill myself...i think how i could be died right now........ i think how i could might be in hell for what i did. ......i think man my right arm makes me ugly now because it all scared up.........and most of all i think how awsome my heart would have been by now...... i really was a good person  ... i would bend over back ward for people all the time .....i was so impressed with my good paying job ,my awsome sunfire GT.my social life was great i was cool. I FELT IN LOVE WITH LIFE. now i dont work have little money,no friends im not a social butterfly ill never to be the same again........i hope we both change the way we think...... some good music for suicidel people is A Perfect Circle they will help you out....what i take to get throw to you prechise such a mess why do i want to watch you.disconect and self destruck one bullet at a time what is your rush everyone will have there day to die....

[waxdiva]

Thank you for posting your question.  Glad to know that I'm not the only one who has these thoughts.

[dreaminghealthy]

What it helps is to change your thought... for example, when i say "Don't think in your mam", what is the image that comes immediately... your mam!, right?, so because "no" doesn't work in your brain (brain works with concepts) then you must think how you  would like to be, or what you want to do, everytime the bad thought come to your mind, like "I Choose to live"... Try it... it really works!!!

[DILOPHOSAURUS]

I use to have those thought but I always knew I could not do anything to my self but now it is changing.  I have even practiced how I can do it.  It is hard to tell your friends that you have these problems and it is hard for me to make up lies for all the cuts all over my body.  Its all hard but I am trying to get help

[NickySixx]

Aint  found a way kill me yet, Eyes burn with stingin sweat, seems everythin  path leads me to nowhere, the bullet screams  to me from somewhere,noooooo i dont wanna dieeeeeeeeeeeeeeee noo i aint gonna dieeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

[Jade59]

I have had these thoughts since I was a young child.  Same as you, some days I think of death a lot, other days, not at all.  Sometimes weeks or months can go by with these thoughts way in the back of my mind, but they are always there even if it's just a little.

When I hear someone say they have NEVER thought of suicide...that seems strange to me.    

I have had these thoughts on ad's and off ad's.  I would have to say I definitely had them more on ad's though.

I'm sorry this is happening to you and I agree, it's very annoying!

[LeftCoastChick]

Having those thoughts are simply awful, I went through that last July and it wouldn't stop. I even imagined the ways to do it,  that's what is called Sucidal Ideation, and it can at a time especially by what you've described - could get more dangerous.  I was so embarrassed by the way I felt, and how I felt like being on one of the gerbil wheels constantly.  You know you DON"T want to feel that way, and it's a battle, but rationally posting here is your first step at getting help. Do you have a psychiatrist? Please call immediately, this is a crisis situation for you. If you don't, I would highly recommend you go to your local ER, it's better to do it during the day, not in the middle of the night, you'll most likely get better treatment.  They take suicidal ideations as seriously as a heart attack, when I told the front triage nurse, she passed me over to another nurse, whom I assume was a psych nurse and I was immediately taken to the back part of the ER.  I talked to a dr. pretty quickly, then a psych resident saw me, and admitted me.  I told them exactly like what you've said, I had the thoughts, but I didn't want to do, but my brain wouldn't shut off.  I ended staying for 4 days, Though I wasn't kept for 4 days for being suicidal, but because the next day I was fine n' dandy. (not a good sign either).
I had my first shrink app't within a week of my discharge. Otherwise if I went to my family doc, it would be 6 months before I would get a shrink.

You aren't alone, too many folks suffer in silence needlessly. My heart goes out to anyone feeling like that.

I do have to say, if you are planning your suicide attempt, please go to your local ER, asap!

[ILADVOCATE]

Before my current recovery I did have thoughts like that when I was psychotic. Even if you would never act on the thoughts they are of concern and it would be essential to speak to your psychiatrist about them and also to see if you have other "conversations" of any kind at all and try to detail it. Your psychiatrist could then better help you and if needed adjust treatment.