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[momtofourboys]

Okay my life ***** to be quite honest. I have a rare disease that tumors grow around the the nerves in my bosy and they hurt like heck. I have no tolerance for pain meds (all I do is sleep and/or vomit) I give them at try for 3 months on the lowest dose. I had a spinal nerve stimulator in my back to help with the foot pain. it works about 30% of the pain. Now they think I have a tumor in my spine. The pain is so unbearable, I can't do anything. I also vowed not to be "lazy" like my mom because she didn't like to go for walks hike or anyhting like that. I can't even go swimming with my kids ro even ride a bike die to the tumors and pain. house work is getting very very hard.  
I have a 5 year old with heart issues and breathing issues that they can't figure it out. my dad is dying and there isn't anything I can do he has diabetes, wegners vasculittis and kidney disease and now he has AML with no hope. he is getting dialysis 3 times a week.  but the worse is not being able to be the mom I wanted to be and so tired from it I hate my life. the doctor asks what about antidepressant. yeah which one and is it going to solve my pain and cure my dad and son?? I was brought up only crazy people seek out to get help. and I been trying to convince myself different
any ideas what antidepressants I can take I have been on some but it didn't seem to work
thank you
michelle

[LeftCoastChick]

I was put on Cymbalta partly for my chronic spinal pain, don't hold your breath on the claims that it can assist with pain, though it is a good anti-depressant to many. (it didn't work for me pain wise) Having such pain that you are in, is unimaginable, but it sounds like you are quite the fighter. It takes 4-6 weeks to fully work. I would suggest at looking (personally) at other options before Cymbalta, it's hard to get off the med. I went into a different class of AD's to help with my pain, and the anxiety has dropped so much, that the pain is far more manageable.

It's really important to have your whole health team in contact with each other, my pdoc and GP send each other reports anytime I am seen. I've had a battle recently because I had bad side effects from a mood stabilizer, and my GP wanted me off the drug, which I did. I basically told my pdoc to talk to my GP and that was the end of it :) I don't think you'll have that issue, but just letting you know.Keep in touch,
LCC

[momtofourboys]

Well He doesn't really know how bad it is. my pcp is going to give him a call. I am usually not as depressed, but when hte pain gets too inbearable,  it seems to make me think negatively. I had a spinal nerve stimulator in my back so it could help me with the pain of my foot, the PCP is gong to see if they can put some leads to my spine where the tumor is. the thing with these tumors is if they remove them they can grow back and come back a lot bigger, 5 that I had removed already came back and they are bigger. I have a total (last count was 12 in my foot)
I guess I need to find someone I feel comfortable with and listen and who will understand. I don't know who.
my PCP was going to put me on cymbalta.
thanks for getting back to me
michelle

[LeftCoastChick]

Anyone in your situation needs some back up help with a therapist at least. We can't suggest a medication here for your. That is best left to a psychiatrist. Many folks who go to them, a majority aren't "crazy", but know there is something wrong that needs addressing.  If you you have been on more then two I really recommend you see a pdoc, as they are specialists in psychopharmacology, and are the best at find the right drug(s) to help you with your pain. Pain is mentally debilitating, and wearing you down both physically and emotionally. It's happened to me, so I completely understand. Talk to your doctor and get a referral. Does your pain specialist know what is going on?
Keep in touch,
LCC