My beloved dog is now no longer in pain

[SassyLassie]

I am so sad and upset, I can hardly think straight, I just got home this minute from putting my beloved dog, Su-Lin to sleep, I am hurting so badly. I loved her so much. It had to be done, and I stayed with her and the vet the entire time until she crossed the "rainbow bridge" I feel so "strange and odd" right now. The house is so quiet, the hurt so real. I know she no longer is hurting or suffering, and that she is with my mother, but, oh goes, I am just almost beside myself. The Lord was with me during the procedure, I was very calm, but, now, it is starting to hit me and I am not doing well. Please keep me and dad in your prayers, he is taking this hard too. My boyfriend and I took her down to the vet, I did not want to put dad through this. The vet was wonderful and she went to heaven very peacefully, it was her time, but, that hurt, it is awful.



Well, I am rambling on, I am not well, I will try to talk later.

[dominosarah]

I am so sorry to hear about your loss......May you find comfort in your memories     sara and the beagle

[SassyLassie]

Well, this morning, it was horrible. At first, I was Ok, then, when I got up it felt so quiet, I saw the lovely sunshine, but, it was dark in my heart. I remember yesterday when she was outside and walking around, and I also remembered when she was able to walk well and run, we used to sit on the porch together. All kinds of memories flooded through my mind, of course, the tears started. You see, in September, I think she had either a stroke or a vestibular disorder hit. All of a sudden, she started walking in circles, would fall to the side and tilt her head to the side. Well, the circle walking stopped, but from then on, her sweet head was tilted and her back legs would give out, the back got worse and worse and when the ice and snow it, sometimes she would fall flat like that picture of Bambi. I or dad would have to go out and lift her. She also had a hard time getting up the outside stairs to come in, she would sometimes fall. Inside, was not much better, and the last few weeks, whenever she was in the kitchen on the linoleum floor, her legs would give out from under her, she could not get up and she would sometimes yelp and scream. It was horrible. And last, she lost control of her bowels, they would just come out, even inside, and she was so very well housebroken. I think what helped to keep her going as long as she did was this drug called "Dexamethasone" it helped her eat and maybe not hurt too badly.

Yesterday morning, however, I knew the inevitable had arrived, dad wanted me to take her too. So, I called the only vet I trust, which in the town where I used to live, about 70 miles from here, he was so very kind, he first gave her a shot that more or less put her in a very deep coma, then he let me sit with her and pet her for awhile, then a half hour later, he picked her up, put her on the table and gave her the shot that was to take her to heaven. I went over to her and as he was administering it, kissed her on the nose and said "cross the bridge my love." I was hurting so badly. The vet then took his stethoscope to listen to her heart, about 30 seconds later, he removed it and said "she is gone now at peace" I just told him thanks so much for your wonderful kindness and concern. I also thanked the receptionists for their concern and I gave them her all bags of food and cans of food plus her leash and collar. They said they would donate them to the Humane center or to a client that could not afford these things. They are a wonderful clinic. I am glad I was not alone, I had the Lord with me, and also my boy friend, he was trying not to cry, but he was, I handled it better, but, when I got outside the office, I lost it and have been that way since. Right now, it is 11:43 and at this time, I was sitting with her but she was already in the coma. She officially passed at 11:55.  It is a sad day, nothing seems normal. No, I could not bring her home, we had no place to bury her, and with my dad only on social security and me not working, we could not afford the cremation. I have lots of her pictures though and she is in my heart.

Oh yes, she was mom's dog, so it is like mom has just died again too. Mom died 4 years ago this past week, the 14th and her funeral service was on April 23, the same day now that Su-Lin left us. So, I have a double hurt, but, so does dad, I know he is hurting deeply too.

Well, thanks for letting me talk. I think I will do a few things and see if I can get to feeling a wee bit better. God bless.
Susie

[SassyLassie]

Yes, God is faithful, I just need to stick close to Him.
I was just reading some comments under Su-Lin's picture and the tears started again, same as reading the posts, but, I am so thankful for all the posts and comments, I thank the Lord for them all.
It is after 9:00, I should take a warm bath and try to relax, I am avoiding going to bed because last night at this time, she was in my room lying down, little did I know that tonight she would be in heaven getting hugs from Him and mom.
Good night, I hope you sleep well.
Hugs back
Susie

[April2]

Oh Honey, I understand! I do! I'm totally there with you. Every little thing was setting me off today, washing his dog dishes, even looking at the photo I posted on here and even all the kind comments from people would start me crying all over again. I know it will just take time for us to heal and we will.
You know I started to get paranoid about my cat today because I noticed she's lost weight but I'm reminding myself she's a senior cat and I'm sure that's normal. She's not acting sick or anything. I have to remind myself that God never gives us more than we can bear and he always provides a way out when things get too much. Every time I went through a hard time a few years ago (and I went through some major hard times), I kept reminding God about this promise that he'd not give me more than I could bear and it sure seemed like it got awfully close! But he's been faithful every step of the way and provided comfort, support, wonderful friends and even eventually, a miracle. God is good, Susie, no matter what, always remember that, and he's in control.
I believe our pets are with God right now. He cares and knows how much we care. We just need to take one day at a time and put our trust in him.

God bless you, my friend. May God provide you with some peace and comfort right now.
*Hugs*
April

[SassyLassie]

Thanks so much for the lovely replies. I just cannot stop crying, I think I have it under control, then bingo, it starts in again. I am a wreck. One thing that makes it so hard, she was mother's dog, so now, it feels like mother has died again.
She was almost human at times, you could say things to her and she would know just what you meant. I am blessed that we had her 14 years, but, it is never long enough. April, I, too, have a kitty that is one year younger and I am now worried about him, and also, I am worried about dad, I know he is taking this hard, but, he does not say anything, he too feels like he has lost mom again. So, I am worried about a lot of things now. I am trying to put it in God's hands, but, I am not doing too well.
I will keep all of those that have had a pet go to heaven in my prayers. We are blessed to have this forum.

Hugs and God's comfort to all
Susie

[Ghilly]

Oh, Sassy Lassie, I am so sorry for your loss!  It matters not that it was her time, it is never easy to say goodbye to our beloved companions.  They truly do transcend being simply pets and become full-fledged family members, no less important or loved than the humans in our families.  Please pass my condolences along to your dad as well.

Ghilly

[April2]

SassyLassie, I'm so sorry! I feel your pain. This is the first time I've been able to post since last night and I'm only doing it for you. I'm in no mood for games and jokes right now (in the Social Forum). It's ok to grieve for our pets. In a way, I was a little worried that my daughter was taking it so well but I think it's sinking in now tonight with her. She's starting to realize he's gone. I think she was in a kind of denial. We all grieve differently and in our own time. I know the pain will lessen for all of us and we will be able to just fondly remember our pets and the joy they brought us. I tell you, I have a cat that's only a year younger than Willow and I'm starting to get paranoid about her but I know that God doesn't give us more than we can bear. And I'm so glad I met all these wonderful people who have been so kind and understanding on here.

Since there's three of us now who lost dogs in the last 24 hours, maybe we can all support each other. We all are going through the same thing right now, the same emotions, I'm sure. I do know it will get better with time. We gave our pets good lives and they knew it. We even helped them into the next life and they aren't suffering anymore. They are all God's creatures and I know he loves them and I believe they are all with him.
God bless you all who have lost pets and God bless our pets. Please, feel free, any of you, to pm me if you ever want to talk. I pray peace for each of us.

Hugs and blessings,
April

[ginger899]

It's a terrible shock, and I too am so very sorry your Su-lin has passed over.
I know what it's like to, to lose a beloved friend. Prayers for you, and may you be comforted through the pain.

[SassyLassie]

Thank you Red, I appreciate your prayers. I know she is not hurting, but, wow, it sure does hurt to loose her.

[Red931]

This is just terrible! Three lost in less than 24 hours. I feel so bad for everyone because I know how hard it is.

[Red931]

I am truley sorry for your loss. I can only say what I have said too many times on here in less than 24 hours and that is to just keep her in your heart and she will be with you forever.

God Bless.