Hello... anyone?

[PuppyPup]

Hi. I suffer from an eating disorder(both anorexia and bulimia), I am recovering, however, I feel myself slipping back... would anyone like to add me on instant messenger and perhaps we could support each other?

[gabbig]

WOW! AM I PROUD AND SUPRISED THAT A GIRL YOUR AGE COULD SO OPENLY ADMIT TO ALL THE DEMONS YOU ARE DEALING WITH, HOW VERY BRAVE, YOU WILL BE OK, AS SOMEONE ELSE SAID TALKING IS TERREFIC, BUT BEING ABLE TO TALK TO PEOPLE WHO TRUELY UNDERSTAND IS THE BEST MEDICING, AT LEAST TO ME,  I WOULD LIKE TO BE YOUR FRIEND, IF YOU COULD BE MINE, ONLY I AM "WAY OLDER THAN YOU" IS THAT OK?

DEPRESSION HAS BEEN A COMPANION OF MINE FOR SO LONG, HAVE BEEN CARRYING SECRETS SINCE I WAS SIX  YEARS OLD, AND WEIGHT IS A PROBLEM TOO,  TOO MUCH OF IT, ALTHOUGH NOT ALL MY FAULT.

MY NEW HUSBAND AND I WERE GETTING READY TO TAKE OUR FIRST MAJOR TRIP IN OUR SAILBOAT, WHILE LAST MINEUT THINGS WERE BEING DONE, I TOOK A PART-TIME JOB AT A JEWELRY STORE IN OUR LOCAL MALL, AS I WAS LEAVING THE STORE THE OVERHEAD GATE FELL, JUST MISSING MY HEAD, BUT SLAMMING INTO MY NECK AND SHOULDERS, BREAKING A BUNCH OF THINGS INCLUDING RUPTURING NEARLY EVERY DISC IN MY SPINEL COLUMN, HAVE PULLED THROUGH NEARLY SURGERIES, REHABS OF ALL TYPES, SPEECH, PHYSICAL, MENTAL, SOME WORKED SOME DIDN'T.

MY DOCTORS CAME AND TOLD ME THAT MY HUSBAND WOULD DIVORCE ME, SO THEY WERE GOING TO TRANSFER ME TO A CONVELESCENT HOSPITAL, SO I COULD RECEIVE 24-7 CARE, SINCE I COULDN'T SPEAK VERY WELL, WAS ABLE TO SQUEEK OUT WHAT THEY HAD SAID, THE NEXT DAY, AFTER SPEAKING WITH HIS EMPLOYER, HE HAD TO QUIT, HE SAID HE WAS TAKING ME HOME, AND HE WOULD DO ALL THE 24-7 CARE, PLUS BRING ME WHEREVER I NEEDED TO BE FOR WHATEVER,  HE DID THIS FOR OVER EIGHT YEARS, NOT ONCE EVER, EVER SHOWING ANY DISTASTE OR THAT I WAS ANYTHING BUT A BEAUTIFUL WOMAN THAT HE LOVED.

HOWEVER, DUE TO THE LACK OF ANY KIND OF EXCERCISE I GAINED 100PDS, AND IT IS IMPOSSIBLE TO GET RID OF=STILL CANNOT EXCERCISE, EXCEPT SWIMMING AND POOL EXCERCISES, BUT CAN'T DO THAT BECAUSE I AM ASHAMED OF HOW I LOOK==UGLY.  MAYBE YOU CAN HELP ME A LITTLE.

REALLY NEED A FRIEND OR SOME FRIENDS,  A GIRL THAT I THOUGHT WAS MY FRIEND LOCALLY, SHE STOPPED COMING BY, NEXT TIME I SAW HER, ASKED HER WHY I DIDN'T SEE HER ANYMORE?====HER REPLY  "YOU DON'T MAKE ME LAUGH ANYMORE".  CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT, SADLY DID LOSE SOME "FRIENDS" THAT OF COURSE I KNOW NOW NEVER WERE, AND NO-ONE EVER SEEMS TO UNDERSTAND WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT, THEY JUST WANT YOU TO CHEER-UP, GET OVER IT, WHAT-EVER, BUT, AS GOOD AS I HAVE DONE, I STILL SUFFER FROM ALL THE LOSSES WE HAVE GONE THROUGH (ANOTHER TIME).

ANYWAY, JUST WANTED YOU TO KNOW THAT THEIR ARE NEW FRIENDS OUT HERE IN THE WILD BLUE YONDER, FRIENDS WHO CAN/DO UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU ARE GOING THROUGH AND WE CAN ACCEPT YOU AS IS, MAYBE EVEN MAKE YOU LAUGH.

YOU DO HAVE A COUPLE OF PROBLEMS ON YOUR BACK I DON'T UNDERSTAND OR HAVE, BUT WHAT WE/I HAVE IS SIMILIAR PAIN WITH WHAT WE ARE DEALING WITH.

YOU NEVER MENTIONED PARENTS OR FAMILY, IS THAT A SORE SUBJECT?  IF SO IF/WHEN YOU ARE EVER READY WE WILL BE HERE FOR YOU, JUST TO LET YOU KNOW, I DO HAVE NATURAL BLOOD RELATIVES=BUT THEY HAVE NEVER BEEN HERE FOR ME/US EVEN WHEN WE LOST EVERYTHING FINANCIALLY AND WERE ABOUT TO BE LIVING ON THE STREETS, THEY LIVED IN ANOTHER STATE AND NEVER ONCE CAME TO SEE US, OR EVER UNDERSTOOD JUST HOW MUCH AND WHAT WE WERE GOING THROUGH.

SO MY ISSUES ARE, GUILT (OVER WHAT I CAUSED TO HAPPEN TO MY WONDERFUL HUSBAND), CONSTANT AND UNRELENTING PAIN, HAVE MEDICATION, BUT AM AFRAID TO TAKE AS MUCH AS DIRECTED, TERRIFIED ABOUT BECOMING DEPENDENT/OR A JUNKIE, WEIGHT, USELESSNESS, GOSH THERE ARE MORE, BUT THAT IS ENOUGH FOR NOW.

JUST WANTED YOU TO KNOW A LITTLE ABOUT ME AND WHO AND WHAT I SUFFER FROM.

CURRENTLY LOSING MY VOICE AGAIN, CAN'T MAKE ANY NOISE OVER A WHISPER ANYMORE,  IT'S BACK!!!! AND COUGHING AND CHOKING EVEN ON LIQUID===KNOW WHAT THIS IS ABOUT?????

WE HAVE A LITTLE "DOG" ALTHOUGH SHE IS REALLY OUR DAUGHTER, NAMED COCOANUT, AND A VERY SMALL PARROT NAMED GEEGEE, SHE IS A TRIP, YOU FIND YOURSELF TALKING TO HER LIKE A PERSON AND SHE HAS A WAY OF RESPONDING, SHE SPEAKS A GREAT DEAL, SHE GETS TON'S OF ATTENTION, AND SHE GETS ANGRY WHEN WE PLAY WITH COCOANUT, THINK SHE IS IN LOVE WITH HER, SHE ACTUALLY TRIES TO BITE US, BUT NO OTHER TIME=WHAT DO YOU THINK?

KNOW THIS IS WAY TOO LONG, BUT=HEY, I DIDN'T GET MY NICKNAME EASILY GABBI, CAN YOU BELIEVE IT, AND NOW I CAN'T TALK ANYMORE, MAYBE THAT IS WHY I AM WRITING LIKE I AM===TRYING TO REACH OUT.

YOU ARE RIGHT ABOUT WRITING, GLAD THAT YOU TOO DO IT,  BYE FOR NOW, GABBIG

[Photographer4]

Hey I got you set up on msn and sent you a message.  I'm going to a friends house so I'll be away for a while.
Amanda

[PuppyPup]

I'm in the UK
Hmm...
Well, it's okay, we can just message on here if you like

[Photographer4]

When I tried to add you it said invalid info. What region are you in
Amanda

[PuppyPup]

Now add me!
Saray_x***@****

[Photographer4]

Ok. I signed up with msn. My user name is photographer.4.live. Now what?

[PuppyPup]

Hehe,if you google MSN LIVE, you'll see a website to download MSN LIVE, then you'll need to create a user account, it should also say create a user account, then you'll be able to log onto the MSN LIVE with that account. :)

[Photographer4]

Thanks for talking. This is the hardest step towards recover.  As you can see, I am not doing so great myself. But I think it would be wonderful to help one another. An can do this(:  but let's do of together.  It's always good to talk to someone who has been thaough tv same thing. Now if I could just figure the chat thing out.
Amanda