Since 5th grade I've been bulimic, anorexic, and a huge binge eater, among other things. I tried to commit suicide in 5th partly because I was overweight (I honestly was). In 6th I was just a binge eater and gained weight, self mutilitating more than I did before. 6th summer I began to restrict again and exercised. I lost weight- but of course not enough. 7th I exercised and binged because I was happy with my weight so I felt like eating was ok....plus it numbed my feelings.
It's been a couple years. Now if I binge I go crazy and exercise untill I can't anymore (which isn't a lot btw) and punish myself. I HATE food. On average I eat 100-350 calories a day. 500 max ever. I purge when I can and abuse laxatives/ipecac when I can.
I thought it was rather apparent I had an eating disorder.... but the one and only person in my life who I've told this to says I don't have an eating disorder. This confuses me. He's the the person in my life who I've told more than anyone else. Point being he should know me better than anyone; he would know if I had an eating disorder.
SO I come here and ask if I'm just weight controlling and it's not a real disorder? Hopefully someone will reply :P I can't think straight anymore.