But I'm not over weight! I'm 'Supposedly' Underweight but I really don't believe that at all!
Hi!
When one is overweight and knows this and wants to reduce then the pattern of eating you face is common. It is not uncommon to be depressed, not eat for periods of time and then go for binge eating. However, the feeling of wanting death points towards a higher level of depression. You need to consult a psychiatrist who specializes in eating disorders. Also depression would need to be treated side by side. Please consult your parents, maybe your school or college therapist and some else whom you can trust and who can talk to your parents. Please try and see a therapist as soon as possible. Just remember, though you feel as though you will not get over it, you will soon be able to follow a diet and exercise program that will help you eat and lose weight. Take care!