I really need someone to just help please, its been since november since i last stopped myself eating and ive come along way, but im fat ugly and discusting....all the time i still have this there, looming over me and i don't know what to do. I've stopped the hole not eating thing and i started feeling more positive for a time, but now and for the past month, i just feel fat and i want to go back :( and i can feel myself giving in, i know it will happen. I know i have my strength and everytime i think about it i can feel myself sinking deeper. Its like what do i do? How do i stop thinking about it. I could be having a great day and suddenly there i am thinking about it, it happens all the time and i don't have the strength to not give in to the tempation of stopping again...any comments would be appreciated, hope im not a bother :/