Help I need to gain weight, but can't eat...recovering from eating disorder also

[sabrina_anne]

I am almost 19 years old, I am about 5'6" and I weighed in today at 107 lbs.  To be honest I like the way i look, but I know I am too thin.  I was bulimic for over a year on and off and I have just about stopped completley, but now everytime I eat anything I feel so nauseas.  I also have a plastic surgery coming up that I neecd to gain weight for.  It's just that whenever i eat, and it isn't a lot at all very small ampunts of food make me feel sick.  I can't drink wiehgt gainer shakes because they give me stomach problems, I can't even eat a whole peice of fruit I either hve to take a few bites and put it in the fridge or throw it out.  I am so tired of not beiong able to eat(I really do love food too, i used to be overweight actually)  I have tried just eating small things every few hours but I have no appetite and...im just so tired of getting all the feelings of "this will make me fat" or even feeling rational about the food but feeling sick after eating it.  I am really uncomfortable with sugar and starches but I am forcing myself to have them now like sodas and  crackers.  Im tihinking i eat less than 800-500 calories a day.  I guess my question is, does anyone know how I can get my stomach back to normal, is anyone else experiencing what i am, how can I put on this weight?  I miss my curvy butt too... =)  any answers would be appreciated.  thanks

[designerhealth]

Hi
I keep trying to get off this site and then I come across a story like yours. My name is Kriste` and I am a nutritionist and trainer. I have worked with so many people in your situation. My heart bleeds for you girls. What you are doing is so dangerous and I am sure there are many who love you and that you love. Please do me a favor and visit my website at www.designerhealthnet.com. If you have questions please call me at 207-479-2897 and leave a message. Also you can e-mail me directly from my site. I am often able to help you with food and exercise to get you out of this cycle. In addditon you really should seek help from your doctor and social worker. Best of luck to you.

[skweeny]

Hi Sabrina! You know, I really understand what you're writing about... and it's really hard to do anything on your own. It really helps when you have someone else to take charge and put things in perspective. What about family? Friends? It's just too hard to do it by yourself.

I have spent a lot of time in the hospital, in therapy... I had to leave school last year before I could finish the year but it's really helped me and it's worth it. I almost died and I think I might be dead if it weren't for friends and my parents forcing me to get help.

Now that I'm up to a healthy weight I am trying a new healthier lifestyle and it's really working for me - the Raw Food lifestyle. I eat a lot of healthy foods that give me energy and I really feel like I am on a healthy path!

Good luck Sabrina and PLEASE never give up!