Hi, i read what you wrote here and my heart got so sad because is the same history with my daughter only that she is younger than you, did your mom and dad know about your situation? do youhave a doctor to talk to?, this illnes is very dificult and you NEED TO FIND HELP before you die, you can die in your sleep, your organs are stopping to work slowly but surely and each of them will get worse if you dont eat,you are destructing your body and your soul, your brain is being destroy too, you are loosing your life and need to find a Eating desorder doctor,a good therapist and most of all you have to trust your parents and work hard with the doctors, no matter what happens en your life before in no wayto change it now but you can make a better future for you and let the past die and not your body, take care of this situation with the real importance that it have,you are killing yourself is that simple, look for help soon and God bless you and protec you every day of your life...if you need somebody to talk to here I am,you can contact me anytime and I will hold your hand from here and my heart will be with you....take care
Reach out for help before it's too late.