body image

[Rach878]

ok, so i have bulimia w/ anorexic tendancies, however i went through all of christmas w/o purging or restricting
now ifeel like i've gained 20lbs, is that possible? I ust can't get over how big i look
and my stomach hurts. i don't know what to do.

[Rach878]

Yeah, i know what you mean. It would be good to talk w/other people who would understand. I just can't help but feelin that i'm gaining weight, and i know i have, but maybe not as much as ithink i have.

Hope your doing well.
Happy New Year

[Zoelula]

Sorry, Rach, I didn't recognize your name, and thought you were someone new to the board. But my advice is the same, actually. I know it's hard, but sitting with the anxiety about weight gain is exactly what you have to do until you realize that your body really knows what it's doing and will keep you at the correct weight. I know you've had a lot of therapy, but I still feel once every other week is not enough support and OA would give you a place to talk about how you are feeling on a daily basis if needed for awhile.
Happy New Year to you!

[Rach878]

Thanks
I have a therpist who specializes in ed. i see her once every other week.
But this has been a long time for me to go without purging or restriciting, and my dr. told me my metabolism is like not working so i'm always paranoidabout gaining weight, adn i really think i did. probably only a few lbs. but it feel like so much more.

[Zoelula]

No, it is not likely that you've gained 20 pounds. You labelled your post correctly: "body image". Feeling big is a part of your eating disorder. First of all, congratulations on making it through the holidays without purging or restricting! Give yourself a pat on the back! What I would suggest you do now is get ongoing support to strengthen your recovery. OA is a great place to meet other people with eating disorders and maybe get a sponsor who you can work with on a regular basis. It's hard to do on your own especially with the feelings you're having. Another option is having your doctor refer you to a therapist who specializes in eating disorders.