I have been actively bulimic for many years (I am 62) and I don't want to die like this. I am 5'1" and weigh 115#. I have no idea where turn. I don't want my husband and my children, who are adults with children of their own, knowing because I am so ashamed. I have had eating disorders since I was a young child -- I remember hiding food at the age of 8 or 9. As a pre-teen I had gained a lot of weight and was put on dexadrine. Not only did I lose weight my grades were straight A's. When the doctor stopped prescribing I started slipping on grades and of course the weight came back on. Please help!!!