TTC after miscarriage

[LisaRG]

Hi to anyone out there'
I have an FSH of 10.2 - but the lab that did the testing had a range between 5 ( considered pre pubescent ) and 15 which was considered pre perimenopausal so I think I am just in the middle.  I have  a 3 year old and have had 2 miscariages in the last year. I am now 44.
Anyway, I used an OPK this month and had sex for what seems like the whole month.  Today my LH surge is on the way down so I will have ( back up sex tonight also).  
I dont really have a question I just feel tired of POAS and the obsession with wanting a baby so badly.  I am constantly feeling my breasts to see if they are sore yet ( the nipples are )and I seem to have a nagging pinching on my right lower side.  This could all just be hopeful imagination.
Anyone out there in the same boat?

[LisaRG]

Don't worry what other people think.  If you and your DH have the love to give a child ( Lots of love and patience  ), then keep trying.  Your young and have no children so trying  should be lots of fun with little stress.  It will happen.
Even though I  am 44 and you are 20  - when you feel the need to have a baby then you should follow through!
Keep your chin up .  

[LisaRG]

Thanks for the response.  It's nice to vent with someone who doesn't mind a little humor.
I never even wanted to have children until I met my husband and conceived in like 5 minutes.  I had a pretty easy pregnancy.  After my DD was born I thought that one would be enough, but something came over me when she turned 2 and after 2 miscarriages I just cant let go.  I assumed all conception was easy - what a fool I was.
I used to read these post and think how sad these poor women were so desperate.  I had no idea it was just a matter of time.
If I get my AF this month - in about 12-14 days, I too will have a nice glass or 2 of Pinot Grigio and decide with my DH if we should try IVF just one time.  Even my poor DH is getting tired of all the trying - that's pathetic LOL.

[Itlyncutie87]

I feel like I'm def. in the same boat as you too. I had a miscarriage feb '08 and have been "trying" bought OPK tests and PG tests. Going crazy BD'ing all the time like it's my business. Me and DF are getting married Saturday and I REALLY wanted to be pregnant around this. But I think AF will be here tomorrow because I'm getting cramps and I'm suppose to get AF tomorrow : ( I hate being disappointed! I want a baby so badly, my friend told me that I'm crazy and not old enough to have a baby. And I'm still a child myself WHICH I totally don't agree. I bought a house with my fiance last year at the age of 19 and still have on my own. I just want to have a healthy baby. Everyone I work with was either pregnant OR has child. I just wish I was next to be blessed. But if I do get AF I'm not going to buy any more OPK just let nature take it's course.

[NurseEducator]

OMG....i was just stalking this site, feeling sorry for myself (again), and along came your post!  Needed to see someone who is in the same boat as me.  Chuckled when i read how you bd'ed for "what seems like the whole month."  Can totally relate to that, sister!

I was up until 2am last night, praying for AF to stay away and to get a BFP (even though i tested neg on 11dpo, 12dpo & 13dpo).  Of course she reared her ugly head this morning, and once again i feel devastated and let down.  

I have been TTC #3 for what seems like an eternity.  Had a mc in Aug.08 (with TWO D&C's following that pregnancy) and a chemical in January.  I told my twin sister that if she sees me trying to buy another OPK or PG test this month...just shoot me and put me outta my misery!  Seriously getting discouraged right now.  I am blessed to have my 2 GORGEOUS kids a DD age 6 and DS age 3.  My husband is out of this world (but thinks i may need therapy soon b/c my obsession is getting slightly out of control - LOL!).  Gonna try NOT to use the OPK's this month and "relax" (I know, if one more person tells me that....).

Good luck to you.  I sit here, drinking my 1st glass of wine this month..praying for another chance to add to my beautiful family (and not go crazy in the process.......)