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582963 tn?1483452520

OMG I AM GOING CRAZY..I WANT THIS BABY SO BAD...IM HAPPY, THEN DEPRESSED, THEN ANGRY

THEN MAD.............anyone feel like they are going in circles...praying for AF not to come...weeks later shes a lil late....makes u think ur pregnant...a couple of days after getting a BFN..she comes and then ur depressed all over again...............then u hear ur best friend or coworker or family member is pregnant and ur like WHEN IS IT MY TURN!!!! People always tell me the same thing I tell others......(it will happen, just dont think about it, ..) Im driving myself crazy waiting and wanting this ever since my first miscarriage............I wish I could go AAAABBRAA-CA-DAABBRAA and like that it happens!!!         ANYONE FEEL LIKE ME!!!!GGGRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!
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562884 tn?1279632334
Unfortunately, way too many of us feel that way one day or another. I'm sorry :(
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585875 tn?1323654505
Yep i really think we all feel like that some days worse than others. Three years on IVF and still no sign of a blessing.. Try and think positive i know its hard... Take Care
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582963 tn?1483452520
I know thanx I just want all the women who are not crackheads, not child abusers, never been an inmate 33 times, and people who dont kill or drown their kids.......to be blessed with at least one!!!! I know life aint fair but WOW they dont deserve to be mothers WE do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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578037 tn?1286967943
going through the exact same thing we have been ttc for 3 years with no luck my af has gone as far as 2 months late which got my hopes up then i did 2 urine tests at two different doctors and they were negative then she showed her up plus i think the last time i counted i knew of at 34 people who i were either related to or knew that have managed to get pregnant with either their first or their second. yeah i was bored and curious
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I just want to say I feel the exact same way.  It's really hard to go to holidays because all of our sisters and brothers on both sides have children. My DH and I actually got into a huge fight last night.  He said I'm being ridiculus.  I just feel so depressed and angry.  
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this yr i was pregnant for 5 months and loss my baby, i ask myself y untill 5 months! i also tell myself to stay positive, but i am so jealous when my younger SIL who got pregnant at 16 without even trying, less than 2 yrs later at 18 and got pregnant with another agan without planning! i tell myself WTF is going on! whenever i see fathers smiling when they r playing wif their children at the parks or shopping malls, how i wish i see my DH wif that smile too.  
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439903 tn?1380137882
you are so not alone, i too lost my baby, 4 weeks ago yesterday, i was 20 weeks 3 days and he came too early. it *****, it ***** so bad. when you cant have something, you want it that much more and when you get it, it means that much more to you but if you loose it, the prize at the end of the road seems ten times further away. especially after being told, you cant do it on your on and yet cant afford anymore help. i hate even more seeing the parents that you know dont appreciate their children. hit and yell at them in the store, let them play in the busy street. let their 6,7,8 year old ride their bikes down the busiest street in the city at 10 o'clock at night. its ridiculous  and i wish more then anything we could change things!! we are all here hurting with you honey!! and you are not crazy for feeling that way!!
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582963 tn?1483452520
oh my goodness, I am so teary eyed by what yall are saying I wish I could change this for all of us.  

Asking4aMiracle---- I read your page and your stories a while back and I just want to let you know that I dont know how I would feel to have delivered my gift then what seems like it being taken away..I prayed for you a while back because like the bible says the Lord will not give us more than we can bare...Evedentally we have bigger blessings coming for us because we want something that even money cant buy.  Its so hard to go from day to day watching mothers give their children up but keeps having them, children being left in garbages, cars, ets.  It makes my insides turn when I see these young teenagers having baby after baby living off of our tax dollars.  I sometimes cry while in the shower just to hide my tears amongs the water dropplets from the shower.  I pray every second I can get and beg for this baby (just one).  Ive never been the woman to give up so while im still fairly young I will keep trying and WAITING!  (If I got a dollar for everytime I cried for a baby, Id be the richest woman on earth)

shier--- I understand your anger.. these young teenage mothers just (playing with sex) and get BLESSED with a baby they dont need, dont want, and sometimes give up.  

rghkah---me and you are just alike I feel so jealous of my friends and all they tell me is (girl you can have mine he/she is so bad or girl you need to wait because they wake you up, etc)  well I want that (waking up in the morning to feed my baby, not getting sleep for my baby, kissing their booboo's when they fall, hold them when they cry, and tell them everyday how special they are)  T*E*A*R*S*      I WANT THAT  T*E*A*R*S*
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LIL_LADY24-   I want all of that too.  My family told me 2 weeks ago enough is enough with the fertility treatments. I know they are worried because I did almost lose my life in June, but it's mine and DH's decision and I want this more than anything.  I just hope it happens for us.  I'm so scared that I will never experience getting pregnant and having a baby.  



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439903 tn?1380137882
i want that too and i feel the same way!! thank you for the prayers, its been so hard but like you said, God will only us what he knows we can bare!! it still hurts not knowing how long i will have to wait till i can hold my own precious gift in my arms and it still hurts even worse knowing that it wont be Aidyn (at least till i meet him in Heaven) but i know my God is loving and kind and it is all in His hands, like you said!! i wish i could give you a hug!! we are the only ones, us ladies going through this, the only ones that know and understand what we are going through and i HATE hearing when my friends with little ones say things like that, like, "watch mine for a night, you'll change your mind" NO I WONT!! and you wont ever understand because your gift came so easily!! but you and i know that once we get that perfect precious gift, we will love it and care for it more then anyone else could ever understand if they tried!!
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582963 tn?1483452520
Amen sista!!!  I know there is something at the end of the rainbow for us!
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582963 tn?1483452520
Im still being hopeful.......I think I will wait until my next surgery and period to TTC!!!!!
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439903 tn?1380137882
well when you are ready, we are all here to support you!! *hugs*
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582963 tn?1483452520
AF just showed up!!!!!!!!!
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i do understand all your feelings,i knew bec im also here just like you waiting to have a baby..all  i can say is be postive always..even you cant see any chances anymore..remain calm and trust our LORD to guide our way..this is the challenge that were going thru..but always remember..WITH GOD ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE!just put all our trust in HIM and he will help us carry the heavy LOAD  right now..i can relate to all of you..LIKE ALL OF YOU  i feel upset most of the time..but what we can do-this is the plan for all of us..in everything there is a purpose..what we can do right now is to give all our very bests..and GOD will do the rest..be strong and take courage,never give up,never back down..never loose faith..trust the LOrd our GOd..he is just preparing our babies out there..and preparing us also down here ..so that when we will meet, were all both ready to hug and kiss each other..smile GOD LOVES US ALL!
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582963 tn?1483452520
I needed to hear that this morning because I was a little sad......I trust my Lord with all my might its just the wait process and seeing  everyone elses little miracles....But I know my day will come soon and I pray tht yours come as well!!!!!!! (thanks sis)
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your very much welcome sis!Godbless us all!
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Yes, I too feel like this.  My husband & I have been ttc for 2 years now.  Just had a consult with the re a month ago, with a follow up in a few weeks.  I have friends who are going through it too.  Hang in there!!!!!  Thankfully, we at least have these forums to post on...
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yah..your correct..im just new in this forum..before im always have an upset feeling..but now it is lessen bec i know im not experiencing this hardships alone..thats why im very glad i found this site..Godbless to all of us!
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582963 tn?1483452520
awwwwwwww Godbless to you too and thanks for the blessings!!!!!!!!!  WE ALL NEED THEM!!!
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I totally feel your pain. We have been actively trying for over a year now, but haven't been preventing anything either for the last 5 years. I have just about given up hope. I am now waiting for my blood tests results to determine if I should even bother trying anymore. Best of luck to you.
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rambopeep..im sorry to hear that your in pain too..like us weve been ttc about 6yrs..as a wife im trying my very best to try whatever work up i can so that i will not regret by doing my bests..God is watching us..and he just testing our patience..just hang on and do our bests and later on he will do the rests,,as long as our intention is good he will grant all our hearts desires..hope it helps..
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582963 tn?1483452520
If only we knew what God had instore for us huh  but like my pastor said in church today thank the Lord for whats to come........praise him for your blessings  as if he blessed u already.........I pray for healing for us and pray that God sends our lil miracles 1 million times closer!!!!!Amen
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thats Good to hear! in everything give praise to GOD coz he whats best  for us..GOD is with us!
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