just got back from first u/s - not good :o(

[ALT76]

I knew it was all too good to be true.  He saw everything BUT a fetus.  He's 99% sure it's a blighted ovum, but since it is early he said he'd give it the benefit of the doubt and wait a week and do another u/s.  I was also supposed to get more blood drawn today but the lab was closed, so I will get it tomorrow and hopefully see on Monday if my numbers are dropping yet.  I'm pretty much going with the 99% and not so much hanging onto the 1%, because he said the only way it would be off is if my days and timing were off, and I am 100% sure when I ovulated.  Plus he said since my HCG was 5396 on Monday, based on that alone something should've showed up.  He also said he saw what looked like blood pooled in my uterus, so he thought a miscarriage was eminent.  

I knew as soon as he started asking questions like "have you had any bleeding?"  "you're still on the prometrium, right?"  and "have you had any nausea?" that I was in for some bad news.  

I can't even get drunk like I used to whenever I got BFN's - have to wait a week and just wait to miscarry.  Awesome.  I work at a very busy coffee shop and it is impossible to get shift coverage and I can't just call out (although I did for tonight's shift).  I don't know what I'm gonna do.  I am BEYOND devastated this time.  We had so much riding on this.  By the time I have to wait a cycle to try again,  I don't know if the effects of my ovarian drilling surgery will have worn off and I'll even be ovulating anymore by then.  Maybe I should just go ahead with the hysterectomy and give up.

[ALT76]

thank you all

And to those of you with stories to give me hope - I really appreciate it.  I don't know if I'm setting myself up for more sadness, but I guess I'll have a better idea tomorrow when I get my beta results.

[dainsey]

yes, don't give up hope!  With this pregnancy I was told I was most likely going to miscarry as when we did see the heartbeat it was only 88.  I'm now 28 weeks :-)  Pregnancy is not an exact science so please don't stop any meds and don't give up!

[usuk]

You will get through this, no matter what the outcome. It can go either way at this point.  And if this turns out to be a blighted ovum, you will get pregnant again. Never give up.

[mlb1234]

I am so sorry to hear this news but I don't think you should give up hope yet.  With miscarriages you really need to get that 2nd ultrasound to know for sure, especially if it is around 6w or less.  

[ita17]

Don't stress too much right now;-/  Even though my last pg ended in a mc, my numbers were healthy & bb growing normally till it ended.  But @ 6 weeks, 5 days we had no HB let alone could we confirm there was a fetal pole.
@ 7 weeks 3 days we had a strong HB etc........

Don' loose hope;)  It really can turn out perfect;)

[mommyin10]

That's why I told you my story. We didn't see the second baby's heartbeat til 7 weeks, 2 days. I know you're guarding your heart & that's totally understandable, but stay strong this next week & I'll be saying an extra prayer for your little one ;)

[ALT76]

I don't know if I'm just torturing myself - but I googled "no fetal pole 6 weeks" and I can't even tell you how many stories I found of women who said they were told the same exact thing I was at 6 wks 2 days and cried all week and went back a week later cuz they hadn't bled yet and there was a heartbeat.  I don't want to get my hopes up just to be let down again, but I guess I'm having a hard time letting go. :o(

[Cill190]

I'm so sorry. I know EXACTLY how you feel. A few weeks ago I lost my 4th baby this year. Don't think about giving up though. It all depends on how strong we are and how far we're willing to go for a baby. Emotionally it's completely draining, I know, if you need to talk feel free to email me: I can relate.

[Helen72]

I am so very sorry.  Can't even imagine your devastation.  My heart goes out to you and dh.

[luvkayln]

You never know sweetie! I mean, women have slow rising hcg and lose hope, and then everything turns out ok just like your little one could just be taking a little longer to develop, and watch, everything will turn out ok too! :) It happens all the time! I know it's hard to be hopeful given everything you've been through, and I completely understand how upset you are! Let's just see what your levels are on Monday and go from there, ok? Stay positive for your baby, I just don't think its over for you at all! Try and relax as much as you can this weekend, and I'll be thinking of you and praying you get great answers with your lab results! So, your u/s is a week from today then?

[ALT76]

I am 6 wks and 2 days.  Plus - my HCG was already 5396 on Monday - and would be much higher by now, so based on that he thought something should've showed up.  I was supposed to get more blood drawn today to see if my HCG levels are rising or have dropped and see what my progesterone is, but the lab was closed.  I will go tomorrow and get the results Monday.  As for timing - I don't think I'm off.  Heck, I was getting BFP's at 10dpo so if I O'd even later that would be pretty incredible because I'd be gettin BFP's even earlier!  I don't think it looks good.

[mommyin10]

How far along are you? If it was your first u/s, I'm guessing you're 5-6 weeks. At our 1st u/s at 5 weeks, 1 day, we only saw a tiny sac. The next week, at 6 weeks, 2 days, we saw a heartbeat & surprise, another sac. No heartbeat in the second sac. My RE said there was a greater chance that the second baby would not be viable. We went back the next week, at 7 weeks, 2 days & saw two beautiful little heartbeats & we're now 17 weeks. Don't give up hope! Your little one needs you to stay strong & positive. Take it easy this week & best wishes for your u/s next week :)

[alikat1205]

This completely beyond bites and is so unfair! Good news, you did get pg, maybe you will again.  I would not give up yet, this is a sign things are working.  :( I am so sorry.

[ashi96]

Hi,

Dont loose hope. How many weeks you are now? because if it is too early, they cant see the fetal pole, they see only a sac. And also did you get your progesterone levels checked?