Getting through the holidays

[Lisi251]

Well its again time for the holiday season.I am starting to feel all those emotions again of dealing with my mom
not being here,I dont want to go through these holidays again without her.I am the oldest of my siblings so the whole family relies on me to make all the preparations.I know its hard on them also just to survive them without her.

This year I am a grandmother for the first time & I was so hoping that for that reason it would be different this year,but
so far I am still dreading the holidays & getting more depressed by the day.I dont want to feel this way but I cant seem to feel any other way.

Blessings.......Lisa

[Judy246]

Lisa, I invite you to see my photo's so you can see our little gift from God. Bittersweet isn't it. Judy

[Lisi251]

Judy, my baby Adam was born July 27,2009 so our precious gifts sent from above arrived at the same time!!!I know that both of our mothers would want us to make the holidays as special for them as they did for us.So after having this conversation I have made up my mind to give it my best shot......Lisa

[Judy246]

Lisa, baby Caitlyn is also 3 months old. She was born July 21, 2009 and our little gift from heaven after the death of my mom. It will be her 1st Halloween, Thanksgiving and Christmas with us and we are all already planning what to get her for Christmas. It will get better, I promise, but it takes time. We will NEVER truly get over losing our mother, but it will get a little easier with time.  Judy

[Lisi251]

Thanks Judy,I know & I will put on my best face no matter how I feel its just so hard.My
3 month old grandson is just the light of my life & regardless will always be there to make his holidays special.After my mothers death my brother & sister have developed a really bad drug problem & I am the one that always has to be there to deal with all that comes from that.I have really had it with that whole situation.I am happy to hear you have a positive outlook on the holidays & they will be what we make them.I guess no matter how hard, we will learn to accept the things we cant change.Thank you for your encouraging words you always make me feel better.

Blessings........Lisa

[Judy246]

Hi Lisa, my sister who is a doctor actually called me yesterday and cried. She is still struggling with my mother's death after 2 yrs. There is no way around it. My mother's birthday is next Wednesday and it's another year without the woman who gave birth to me and her birthday is Thanksgiving. It's still difficult, but our family is going to get together, take her flowers for her birthday and Thanksgiving and we have so much to be thankful with a new baby in the family. Little Caitlyn's 1st Thanksgiving....without ever meeting her grandma who would have been crazy over her.  You can either spend quite time  in prayer and reflection or get together with your family and celebrate the holiday and your mother's life and legacy. She would have wanted  you to continue with life to the fullest. The holiday's will be what you make it, so celebrate the holidays and your mom's life, legacy and memory. She is still with you and your family, especially during the holidays.  Judy