My grandmother passed away yesterday at the age of 83. She had wandered off from her house Thursday evening, and was found the next morning a block down the alley from her home, where she had froze to death. She was found wearing only one boot, and no coat. She was suffering from the onset of demensia. She would have these horrible spells of confusion, and sometimes wouldn't even recognize her own children. The same night just before she had wandered off, my aunt was there. My grandma had the flu, and was tearing apart her bed because she was convinced there was a dead person laying in it. Shortly after, she had throw up and my aunt cleaned her bed up and left her. She just...left her there. We aren't sure exactly when she wandered off, but we have gone through all the different scenarios as to what possessed her to just leave her house like she did without even getting properly ready for the below zero weather. She wasn't one to just leave her house like that, something had to have made her. She was starting to hallucinate, and we believe she may have seen something that scared her bad enough to just take off.
I don't understand, of all ways why did she have to go the way she did? Why couldn't.god have taken her peacefully. I have accepted the face that she is gone, but I don't think I will ever be able to accept how she died. It's not fair! They always say god does things for a reason, but what possible reason could be behind this?? Why do bad things happen to good people!!! My grandmother was a kind, sweet and caring woman, she did not diserve this. All I can think about Is her laying there on the ground, and her fragile voice calling for help, and I can't quit pictuing her pale, frozen, lifeless body just laying there waiting to be found.
I don't understand. I want this to be a nightmare, or some sick joke. Why her?? Why did she have to go the way she did. She deserved to be surrounded by the ones who love her when she passed, not freezing to death in an alley alone!!! Why why why!!!!!! I can't wrap my head around this, its tearing me apart inside!