I am sorry for your Loss, I lost a niece at a young age, I also am here for you to send a message to to talk, it isnt easy , you have to just endure, feel the feelings and mourn have you a relative who may be near you and let you talk, someone else feeling your pain to share it with. Let us know if we can help.
I have not but I have two friends that have and I can tell you that you really do need someone to talk to. I am here for you if you would like a good listener.