suicide

[jessica728]

seven years ago my mother commited suicide. i have never really gotten over it. she had a bad drug addiction and my sister, my brother and i were taken away. my brothers dad took him and my sister and i went to live with our grandparents since our father is a drug addict as well. i know she loved us and other than the neglect she wasnt a terrible mother and loosing us made her snap. as a kid i went to councelling since i believed i could have helped her since i knew about her drug problem and she made me promise never to tell. what i know now is that of course other people knew it was obvious and they couldnt help her either. i miss her so much and this had really affected everything in my life. i think i suffer from depression too and i always think is it because im sick like her? will i end up like her? im a first year university student in psychology and i would like to be a therapist one day, but how can i help other people when i cant even help myself?

[jessica728]

Thank you all so much for you're kind words. Just knowing that theres other people who actually care and don't even know me. I'm sure you're all right and you each gave me some great advice. I'm sure she is proud and I just need to focus on the good stuff in life and I know I can make it through, like you said. Sometimes it gets just a bit overwhelming and I just think why does it have to be so hard? But I suppose that's just how it is. They say that God never gives us more than we can handle but if thats true why do people commit suicide? And Judy I am so sorry for the loss of your mother, and I wish you the best during your healing process. Thank you all again for your time.

[Judy246]

Hi Jessica,

I'm sooo sorry for the loss of your mother and what wonderful advice that you received from margypops.

There is alway light at the end of the tunnel and you are the best thing that has ever happend to your mom and she "is" so very proud of you and your accomplishments.

Jessica, you are an extention of your mother, so make her proud by living a good, positive, meaningful, productive life.  

My mother died July 19, 2007 and I'm still struggle with not having my mom. I'm devistated and it's baby steps for me right now.

Jessica, although you past was very difficult, it does not mean that what has happend to your beloved mother has to happen to you.

When someone commits suicide, it was because they could not find a way out of a situation that in reality was tempory.  God has given us the ability to make choices in life and He will give you wisdom from your experiences and strength to not repeat the mistakes from the past. Make your mother proud and be the first generation of University in your family and break that negative cycle of your families past.  You can  do it.

Also, surround yourself with a possitive environment, good people, good friends and God will put you in the right path.

You, your mom and my beloved mom will be in my thoughts and prayers.

Judy

[margypops]

How wonderful you are a first year student at University and how proud she would have been, focus on that ,and you will succeed ,determine that you are not going to suffer as she did , and fill your life with work and friends and stay busy, it is our thoughts that make us anxious and depressed ,be determined not to let that happen. When you feel some depression or anxiety coming on ,after some thoughts , let it go , distract your self so your mind has changed course., I doubt if you will get sick like your Mom did with this opportunity of a career helping others ahead of you, and you say "how can you help other people : well its from your own experience ,thats what we do here at Med help , share our experience,s and you are learning at Uni . So go for it, and let us know how you are doing.