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I came onto this site a year ago, found it very informative. I'd like to think the advice given by Dr. HHH is sound medical advice, being an infectious disease expert with the University of Washington.
That said, I keep thinking 'What if I'm the first'? I read a medical book a couple of weeks ago that states HIV is found, in very small amounts, in saliva. However, no cases have been proven to be linked from receiving a BJ. What if I'm the first? I've tried so hard to be careful all my life, and I seem to put myself in self-imposed precarious, or at least ambiguous, situations.
What if I'm the first? I would think receiving a BJ would be the same risk at making out, right? I don't know, it's all so damn confusing. Should I get tested? And why? If I am the first, then what I have dreaded all my life has happened. And why? Because a girl here was playing mind games, cause a girl there didn't care, because a girl there was pretentious? I realize I have a problem. Everyone does. And then I'm stressed at work. Or maybe I worry about HIV, through non risk exposures, because women, and my approach to them, makes me sick. Literally, sick to my stomach. Nice guy, handsome, well educated. Well, it is forty years since the feminist movement. And the good church girls have been taken. And my 'relationships' with women have been so wrong, approach, follow through, idea, etc. And ****** are wrong. So what now? Figure what to do?
Receiving a BJ is safe, right? Why am I scared then? Or at least not certain. Maybe it's disgust. Never again, ever. I may die sexually frustrated with a broken heart, but that's o.k. with me.
That said, I keep thinking 'What if I'm the first'? I read a medical book a couple of weeks ago that states HIV is found, in very small amounts, in saliva. However, no cases have been proven to be linked from receiving a BJ. What if I'm the first? I've tried so hard to be careful all my life, and I seem to put myself in self-imposed precarious, or at least ambiguous, situations.
What if I'm the first? I would think receiving a BJ would be the same risk at making out, right? I don't know, it's all so damn confusing. Should I get tested? And why? If I am the first, then what I have dreaded all my life has happened. And why? Because a girl here was playing mind games, cause a girl there didn't care, because a girl there was pretentious? I realize I have a problem. Everyone does. And then I'm stressed at work. Or maybe I worry about HIV, through non risk exposures, because women, and my approach to them, makes me sick. Literally, sick to my stomach. Nice guy, handsome, well educated. Well, it is forty years since the feminist movement. And the good church girls have been taken. And my 'relationships' with women have been so wrong, approach, follow through, idea, etc. And ****** are wrong. So what now? Figure what to do?
Receiving a BJ is safe, right? Why am I scared then? Or at least not certain. Maybe it's disgust. Never again, ever. I may die sexually frustrated with a broken heart, but that's o.k. with me.
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Yes, I'm still here and you know what's my answer to all those questions!
if you are the first ill see you one sunday night on 60 minutes with dan rather
you dont have hiv from this kind of exposure
you dont have hiv from this kind of exposure
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