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Bigdummy
I am here.
I am experiencing really bad panic attacks and anxiety attacks to the point I can barely breathe. I almost went to the ER today it was so bad. At one point I thought I was having a heart attack.
I am having really bad anxiety due to the fact I cant go to public health until September. THere is nowhere else to get a rapid test done besides that place! I called the Gay Health and they said its for MEN ONLY and as a female, I am not eligible for their services plus they have a days long wait for a test as so many gay men go there daily for rapid tests due to the huge gay population here in the city. I dont think I can tolerate having my blood drawn and waiting days for an answer.
I kind of want to go buy a Home Express HIV kit but I am way too embarrassed/mortified to go and purchse one. I can always go thru the pharmacy drive-thru but I am still too embarrassed.
Even though I tested negative for herpes and have not had one sprout up, I am nearly certain I have them. I feel different "down there" like a calm before a storm. I keep checking to see if a herpe has shown up but none do. But I am certain it will happen soon.
I am also certain I never had mono. I think it was a mixup at the lab, or a false mono positive test.
I want to petiton the FDA to make rapid tests available at all pharmacies. They can have pregnancy tests and all kinds of other tests, but why not HIV tests? When I was at public health the nuse left the room and I tried to find some rapid tests to steal but they must lock them up.
I am not online as much only because Teak and a lot of people in here make me feel dumb for posting questions and tell me just to go take my test. I feel like nobody can help me. The damage is already done and I might have HIV. Unlike most of you in here, I had an actual risk of multiple unprotected exposures due to the jerk taking off the condom and not telling me. So I have a real fear here. It wasnt just one time. It was SEVERAL times.
Normally I am online now in the am and pm...during the day I hyperventilate and search for rapid testing sites...but apparently there is only one and they have banned me until my 3 month in Sept.
I am experiencing really bad panic attacks and anxiety attacks to the point I can barely breathe. I almost went to the ER today it was so bad. At one point I thought I was having a heart attack.
I am having really bad anxiety due to the fact I cant go to public health until September. THere is nowhere else to get a rapid test done besides that place! I called the Gay Health and they said its for MEN ONLY and as a female, I am not eligible for their services plus they have a days long wait for a test as so many gay men go there daily for rapid tests due to the huge gay population here in the city. I dont think I can tolerate having my blood drawn and waiting days for an answer.
I kind of want to go buy a Home Express HIV kit but I am way too embarrassed/mortified to go and purchse one. I can always go thru the pharmacy drive-thru but I am still too embarrassed.
Even though I tested negative for herpes and have not had one sprout up, I am nearly certain I have them. I feel different "down there" like a calm before a storm. I keep checking to see if a herpe has shown up but none do. But I am certain it will happen soon.
I am also certain I never had mono. I think it was a mixup at the lab, or a false mono positive test.
I want to petiton the FDA to make rapid tests available at all pharmacies. They can have pregnancy tests and all kinds of other tests, but why not HIV tests? When I was at public health the nuse left the room and I tried to find some rapid tests to steal but they must lock them up.
I am not online as much only because Teak and a lot of people in here make me feel dumb for posting questions and tell me just to go take my test. I feel like nobody can help me. The damage is already done and I might have HIV. Unlike most of you in here, I had an actual risk of multiple unprotected exposures due to the jerk taking off the condom and not telling me. So I have a real fear here. It wasnt just one time. It was SEVERAL times.
Normally I am online now in the am and pm...during the day I hyperventilate and search for rapid testing sites...but apparently there is only one and they have banned me until my 3 month in Sept.
My grandmother is 99. And while she's not as healthy as an ox she's still pretty danged active and healthy.
Bluebell: I don't know if I have it or not. I know that I am most likely negative. There's a difference.
Bluebell: I don't know if I have it or not. I know that I am most likely negative. There's a difference.
Come to think of it I have seen some pretty lively old people. Maybe living to a 100 wouldn't be too bad.
well at least you know you dont have it since you were protected.
Learn from it and never leave your wife...and you will never get it.
Learn from it and never leave your wife...and you will never get it.
Its not really dying from HIV that scares me...its the fact I wont be able to ever have a normal relatiionship or life again. People would find out how I got it (SEX) and judge me. I would never have kids, and wouldnt feel like I had anything to live for. I would stop caring about everything because I would know that my time on earth is numbered. That is why I woudl rather have cancer, at least I would know that I have a chance to live my life to the age of 100 if I could beat the cancer...but HIV...its a death sentence.
Those are my exact feelings almost word for word. Who wants to live to be a hundred? You would need help just getting out of the bed.
and HIV is no longer a death sentence for you guys who live in the US of A. It may be here in my third world banana republic of a country called the Philippines...
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