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Bigdummy
I am here.
I am experiencing really bad panic attacks and anxiety attacks to the point I can barely breathe. I almost went to the ER today it was so bad. At one point I thought I was having a heart attack.
I am having really bad anxiety due to the fact I cant go to public health until September. THere is nowhere else to get a rapid test done besides that place! I called the Gay Health and they said its for MEN ONLY and as a female, I am not eligible for their services plus they have a days long wait for a test as so many gay men go there daily for rapid tests due to the huge gay population here in the city. I dont think I can tolerate having my blood drawn and waiting days for an answer.
I kind of want to go buy a Home Express HIV kit but I am way too embarrassed/mortified to go and purchse one. I can always go thru the pharmacy drive-thru but I am still too embarrassed.
Even though I tested negative for herpes and have not had one sprout up, I am nearly certain I have them. I feel different "down there" like a calm before a storm. I keep checking to see if a herpe has shown up but none do. But I am certain it will happen soon.
I am also certain I never had mono. I think it was a mixup at the lab, or a false mono positive test.
I want to petiton the FDA to make rapid tests available at all pharmacies. They can have pregnancy tests and all kinds of other tests, but why not HIV tests? When I was at public health the nuse left the room and I tried to find some rapid tests to steal but they must lock them up.
I am not online as much only because Teak and a lot of people in here make me feel dumb for posting questions and tell me just to go take my test. I feel like nobody can help me. The damage is already done and I might have HIV. Unlike most of you in here, I had an actual risk of multiple unprotected exposures due to the jerk taking off the condom and not telling me. So I have a real fear here. It wasnt just one time. It was SEVERAL times.
Normally I am online now in the am and pm...during the day I hyperventilate and search for rapid testing sites...but apparently there is only one and they have banned me until my 3 month in Sept.
I am experiencing really bad panic attacks and anxiety attacks to the point I can barely breathe. I almost went to the ER today it was so bad. At one point I thought I was having a heart attack.
I am having really bad anxiety due to the fact I cant go to public health until September. THere is nowhere else to get a rapid test done besides that place! I called the Gay Health and they said its for MEN ONLY and as a female, I am not eligible for their services plus they have a days long wait for a test as so many gay men go there daily for rapid tests due to the huge gay population here in the city. I dont think I can tolerate having my blood drawn and waiting days for an answer.
I kind of want to go buy a Home Express HIV kit but I am way too embarrassed/mortified to go and purchse one. I can always go thru the pharmacy drive-thru but I am still too embarrassed.
Even though I tested negative for herpes and have not had one sprout up, I am nearly certain I have them. I feel different "down there" like a calm before a storm. I keep checking to see if a herpe has shown up but none do. But I am certain it will happen soon.
I am also certain I never had mono. I think it was a mixup at the lab, or a false mono positive test.
I want to petiton the FDA to make rapid tests available at all pharmacies. They can have pregnancy tests and all kinds of other tests, but why not HIV tests? When I was at public health the nuse left the room and I tried to find some rapid tests to steal but they must lock them up.
I am not online as much only because Teak and a lot of people in here make me feel dumb for posting questions and tell me just to go take my test. I feel like nobody can help me. The damage is already done and I might have HIV. Unlike most of you in here, I had an actual risk of multiple unprotected exposures due to the jerk taking off the condom and not telling me. So I have a real fear here. It wasnt just one time. It was SEVERAL times.
Normally I am online now in the am and pm...during the day I hyperventilate and search for rapid testing sites...but apparently there is only one and they have banned me until my 3 month in Sept.
Do you have any real life friends to share your fears with? A religious minister? A counsellor nearby?
I have nobody to talk to. I told my good friend but she just brushes me off and says I dont have it and when I kept taking about it she actually told me I need to seek mental help.
The only other place I can go to get a test is any dr office for a blood test. I want a rapid test. I dont want to get my blood drawn then wait over a week. I cant stand that. But I might just do it.
I have already decided that if I live thru this and test negative I am going to seek the help of a therpaist. I think this HIV scare will leave me with post traumatic stress disorder.
The only other place I can go to get a test is any dr office for a blood test. I want a rapid test. I dont want to get my blood drawn then wait over a week. I cant stand that. But I might just do it.
I have already decided that if I live thru this and test negative I am going to seek the help of a therpaist. I think this HIV scare will leave me with post traumatic stress disorder.
You are suppose to wait a while to take a herpes test. I remember Dr.H told someone a few months to be sure.
Man, this thing has raised my blood pressure, so you should calm down, cuz the same can happen to you. The health dept is not the only place you can take a test. GO somewhere else
Man, this thing has raised my blood pressure, so you should calm down, cuz the same can happen to you. The health dept is not the only place you can take a test. GO somewhere else
you haven't went to that hivtesting.org site(I think this is the site) where you can enter your zip code and a bunch of testing sites and the type of test they use come up?
I'm sure she's like me, she feels more comfortable pooring her heart out to people who don't know her and will never see her. THats why I'm on here. I can't talk to people I know about this.
I'm on my 4th week post pseudoexposure (mine was a single protected encounter with a CSW) and i realize now that I don't need to test. But I DID confide in my family doctor (who is also trained in psychological counselling - he usually deals with drug addicts though) and with a college roommate. I'm sorry if your friend seemingly brushed you off. I was lucky my fried is very supportive. He's a doctor and basically reinforced what Dr. HHH and teak says about protected sex. Although he did say that if I feak out one more time he's gonna take his shoe and shove it up my ***... (he was joking)
I understand that it helps to talk to someone. Sometimes it's not a real life option, but we're here and we'll try to help you.
But you have to help yourself also by making a firm decision to be strong.
I understand that it helps to talk to someone. Sometimes it's not a real life option, but we're here and we'll try to help you.
But you have to help yourself also by making a firm decision to be strong.
how are they going to know if your an IV drug user? Id say sure I'm addicted to H. Give me a test?
Thank you for the link to that hivtest.org
There are some more testing sites that I didnt know about...I am going to go to an anymous one so I dont have to give my name or anything. I bet they do rapid tests.
There are some more testing sites that I didnt know about...I am going to go to an anymous one so I dont have to give my name or anything. I bet they do rapid tests.
yeah, thats what I planned, but if your pos, eventually you'll have to go to a real doc.
Panic attacks are a very difficult thing to deal with, coming from my own experience. I feel your pain. I take Xanax 0.25 MG (lowest dose) as needed, but I have learned to manage my anxiety attacks for the most part on my own. Try www.adaa.org for support.
As far as HIV testing sites, what city are you in? Try a search for "HIV testing sites" in your local area. You will most likely find alternate testing sites than the two you mentioned.
Finally, there is no need to feel embarrased to purchase the Home Access test. You would not be the first person at your local pharmacy to buy one...
As far as HIV testing sites, what city are you in? Try a search for "HIV testing sites" in your local area. You will most likely find alternate testing sites than the two you mentioned.
Finally, there is no need to feel embarrased to purchase the Home Access test. You would not be the first person at your local pharmacy to buy one...
I live in Seattle. The only places that do rapid tests is a Gay Men's clinic and the county public health. The other counties have public health but they dont offer rapid tests unless you are an IV drug user, gay or were sexually assaulted. I am half tempted to tell them I was sexually assaulted just to get the rapid test.
I feel like the clerks will judge me when I buy the Home Access test. I know it sounds stupid but stuff like that really embarrasses me. I suffer panic attacks as it is and I will tell you that if I go and buy the test and feel like people are looking at me I can have a panic attack in the store and it is not good...I start shaking, get lightheaded, could possibly throw up and then feel sick all day and dizzy.
I feel like the clerks will judge me when I buy the Home Access test. I know it sounds stupid but stuff like that really embarrasses me. I suffer panic attacks as it is and I will tell you that if I go and buy the test and feel like people are looking at me I can have a panic attack in the store and it is not good...I start shaking, get lightheaded, could possibly throw up and then feel sick all day and dizzy.
They can tell if you use IV drugs, might ask to see the track lines in your arms. And you said you are a big guy...most IV drug users are skinny as hell.
I hope I'm not positive. I couldnt handle it.
Do you think the fact I had a 3 week negative test is any sign that I will stay negative?
Do you think the fact I had a 3 week negative test is any sign that I will stay negative?
I had a 9 day, a 10 day and a 3 week test. The 9 day was a blood ELISA and the 10 day and 3 week were rapid oral tests. All negative.
I am now at 4.5 weeks.
I am now at 4.5 weeks.
Your 3 wk result is encouraging. You are at 4.5 wks now but I would suggest waiting until at least your 6th wk to re-test and then follow-up at the end of the window (12/ 13 wks).
Nah, I believe Teak when he says he didnt get symptoms. Or maybe he is saying that to scare us even worse because even if you dont have symptoms you can still have HIV!
If I test positive I want Teak to call me collect and maybe visit him so he can help me thru this.
If I test positive I want Teak to call me collect and maybe visit him so he can help me thru this.
Steroids are like IV drugs, I can say I'm on Roids.
I think a 3wk test is a great sign. I didn't even know you had a 3wk neg. Now I know you don't have it.
I think a 3wk test is a great sign. I didn't even know you had a 3wk neg. Now I know you don't have it.
Yes, but then you would have to get over feeling embarrased to buy one. Actually, I keep obsessively checking my temp every so often.... if the rapid tests where available for sale, I'd probably drive myself crazy testing!
Roids LMAO...might just work
Well, it wasnt techinally 3 weeks it was 20 days...just one day shy of 3 weeks.
At first I felt good about the 3 week, then Teak told me it means nothing and to get a 12/13 week test. Teak has scared the living daylights out of me. For some reason I believe Teak more than Dr HHH.
Well, it wasnt techinally 3 weeks it was 20 days...just one day shy of 3 weeks.
At first I felt good about the 3 week, then Teak told me it means nothing and to get a 12/13 week test. Teak has scared the living daylights out of me. For some reason I believe Teak more than Dr HHH.
Yeah, thats what I told him.
The guy can be an a$$hole at times. But he seems really at peace or really sure about himself. He doesn't seem to be letting the disease get to him like it would you, me, and a lot of other people. I always thought I was pretty strong mentally, but the moment this came into my mind I've been like a big baby. ANd I'm not ashamed. I'm scared my life will never be the same.
The guy can be an a$$hole at times. But he seems really at peace or really sure about himself. He doesn't seem to be letting the disease get to him like it would you, me, and a lot of other people. I always thought I was pretty strong mentally, but the moment this came into my mind I've been like a big baby. ANd I'm not ashamed. I'm scared my life will never be the same.
If the FDA would approve rapid tests for sale at pharmacies I would test every few days. That way I can feel some sense of reassurance.
I know what you mean, now sense you say that a 3wk test is like my 10day test, Its a good sign but it really means nothing.
Sometimes I feel like Teak is holding back. Like he doesn't want to say some of the symptoms he felt cuz he know all of us would probably just go jump off a bridge or something.
Sometimes I feel like Teak is holding back. Like he doesn't want to say some of the symptoms he felt cuz he know all of us would probably just go jump off a bridge or something.
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