I do need a wake up call I am so anxious. I've never felt this before. I can't convince myself otherwise that she reused it and that is why she was let go. They didn't break any law about privacy in this case bc I called to speak to her and they informed me that she no longer worked there.
But I just can't seem to shake it. A few weeks ago I felt great when I went in and she showed me the lancets that were safety's. But then when I went in the second time she said these are the only 2 types we use-these greens and these blues. And the ones she showed the first time werent there. She then said no I showed you these last time and I knew it wasn't those because bc as soon as I got home I researched the name on the box so I remembered it. I just feel like it something there hiding. My husband told me I should forget about it that they've showed me everything and he wants to have unprotected sex but whenever I try I start shaking uncontrollably bc I don't want to harm him- it's sickening!
Don't you think it's strange. That they said the only use 2 kinds yet they don't. And that my GP was worried about them letting the girl go.
Did you not read what I wrote? You will not have got HIV from this EVEN IF the lancet was re-used (which it wasn't) you are allowing your imagination to run away with you and be ruled by fear, this is not fact. Please I urge you, look at the facts. It is impossible for you to have HIV. Please stop, it is not good for you or your family. STOP.
You are wasting all this time calling these places, badgering the staff, do you not see how irrational you are being? It is quite frankly none of your business why the medical tech was let go, and honestly, you shouldn't have been told that she was anyway.
There are privacy laws, and if that doctor gave you ANY information as to a reason why the girl was terminated, they could be sued. You have no business even asking, it is inappropriate and has nothing to do with you. Put yourself in the shoes of the medical assistant...how would you feel if you found out someone was asking personal questions as to why you were let go from a job??? Your anxious thoughts are spiralling out of control.
You've been told how many times that lancets are NOT reusable. I even tried explaining that even if they WERE, it would not be a mechanism for transmission!!
Your first and ONLY priority at this point should be to seek some professional mental health help to address this majorly out of control anxiety and obsessive thoughts. You can call every hotline and this clinic every day asking questions, and while you may be relieved for a minute or two, the anxiety will return and you will come up with yet another "what if". That's how anxiety works.
PLEASE stop calling the clinic, they have given you more than enough explanations. You need help for your anxiety. Your worries about your baby are misguided...you SHOULD be worried about the potential impact this severe anxiety is having on your pregnancy, not an HIV risk that was never existent in the first place.
I know this sounds harsh...but you need a serious wake up call and obviously no one has gotten thru to you yet. Get off the internet and start calling around to find a therapist. There is nothing more this forum can do for you.
You dont have HIV and the only medical profesionals you should be speaking to on this matter are ones that can help you tackle your anxiety.
He also said although a tiny risk for HIV transmission he sees more of a risk for hep by reusing not just a lancet but a needle. He said even in a hospital if they reuse it although possible HIV can be transmitted that he sees hep being transmitted more. He also said that almost all medical supplies not just lancets have safety mechanisms on them so that they can't injure staff or be reused.
I called the HIV hotline-their awesome too. I spoke to the guy there he said DUO is not offered here or atleast as far as he knows. He said it sounds like I'm talking about ELISA and he said that conclusive is at 3 months.
He then asked me to explain why I thought I needed to be tested. So I told him he story. At first he said that would never happen then I told him the girl being let go and all else. He said listen the reuse of the lancet doesn't really concern me that much but that If I wanted piece of mind for the girl being let go that maybe I should contact my OB and see if she's a doc they could tell her. So I did she said no they wouldn't. So I called the VP of medical services for the pph. She explained to me that it had NOTHING to do with negligence in her being a medical assistant. That if it was bc of that she would have to have told me or else she could lose her job. She said she wouldn't lie to me. That I had to accept the facts that they ONLY use safety lancets there. So this is where I am at- after speaking to the hotline. He explained to me that he hasn't seen reuseable lancets since he used to teach about medical supplies and that was 10+ years ago. He said that the reusable one he saw 10+ years ago was ones that were wrapped in paper cover and were exposed he said he knows of NONE that can be reused. They are all disposable one time use- wouldn't work again-in a medical office/clinic.
He as well as the VP lady i spoke to both said that they both thought I should test just so I can stop driving myself crazy but that everything would stay the same-negative. She said just test now at another clinic if I wanted and he said I still need to wait 3 months or else I'd be a waste of money.