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Fear of Hiv (not ridiculous)
Hi. I was searching on this topic because I have spent the last two months of my life with anxiety 24/7.
However my case is not like the ones I've read here. I would be willing to take the experience of many of these guys concerned with no reason. well here is my situation.
I had a bruise on the top of my shaft near the head of my penis. From masturbation with the wrong lubrication. A small skin was pealed and it had been 3,4 days and it was healed expect an exact dot the size of a thin needle's girth that after my sexual encounter I found to be really red but there was no blood coming out. so this is what happened. I am 22 years old and after a long night of drinking I met an older woman that I went back to her place with. She was in her mid 40's but really good looking and in good shape. however before we even started to have sex she asked me if I have a condom and I assured her. It kinda made me feel safe about her. We didn't really take off our clothes that much but after 10 minutes she turned around and I saw that on her lower back she had a weird shape of a different color. I believe a little lighter than the rest of her skin. It looked like the shape of a cloud. So I got really worried and pretended that I had an orgasm and took my penis out, but as I took it out the condom slipped and I felt the skin of my penis touching against her wet inside but this was a short duration of ten seconds perhaps that my opening was exposed to her fluid. When I left her house I went to the closest gas station in the bathroom and started washing my bruise. I could see the a red dot that was not healed and was open though I didn't have any bleeding but it was so open that if I pressed it I assume it would start bleeding. Now I've had the worst 2 months of my life. I'm almost loosing my job. I can't sleep at night. I have a really bad anxiety, sometimes I feel like I'm gonna have a panic attack. the reason is that 1 week later I got sick, sour throat. throwing up. Tingling in my hands. Lose of appetite. All flu like symptoms and then I got a sour throat again after 2 weeks and a little nausia but nothing like the first one. I'm scared to death. I was hoping someone could tell me if the short duration of 20 seconds of my bruised skin being exposed to her fluid and immediately staying out in oxygen could cause anything? I'm so worried that I think my anxiety is going to weaken my immune system and I won't have a chance to overcome the virus. I just can't help myself.
However my case is not like the ones I've read here. I would be willing to take the experience of many of these guys concerned with no reason. well here is my situation.
I had a bruise on the top of my shaft near the head of my penis. From masturbation with the wrong lubrication. A small skin was pealed and it had been 3,4 days and it was healed expect an exact dot the size of a thin needle's girth that after my sexual encounter I found to be really red but there was no blood coming out. so this is what happened. I am 22 years old and after a long night of drinking I met an older woman that I went back to her place with. She was in her mid 40's but really good looking and in good shape. however before we even started to have sex she asked me if I have a condom and I assured her. It kinda made me feel safe about her. We didn't really take off our clothes that much but after 10 minutes she turned around and I saw that on her lower back she had a weird shape of a different color. I believe a little lighter than the rest of her skin. It looked like the shape of a cloud. So I got really worried and pretended that I had an orgasm and took my penis out, but as I took it out the condom slipped and I felt the skin of my penis touching against her wet inside but this was a short duration of ten seconds perhaps that my opening was exposed to her fluid. When I left her house I went to the closest gas station in the bathroom and started washing my bruise. I could see the a red dot that was not healed and was open though I didn't have any bleeding but it was so open that if I pressed it I assume it would start bleeding. Now I've had the worst 2 months of my life. I'm almost loosing my job. I can't sleep at night. I have a really bad anxiety, sometimes I feel like I'm gonna have a panic attack. the reason is that 1 week later I got sick, sour throat. throwing up. Tingling in my hands. Lose of appetite. All flu like symptoms and then I got a sour throat again after 2 weeks and a little nausia but nothing like the first one. I'm scared to death. I was hoping someone could tell me if the short duration of 20 seconds of my bruised skin being exposed to her fluid and immediately staying out in oxygen could cause anything? I'm so worried that I think my anxiety is going to weaken my immune system and I won't have a chance to overcome the virus. I just can't help myself.
by the way teak I noticed you were from Ohio. My encounter was in Columbus, ohio. I am not originally from here... I've heard the odds change on location.
Would you say there is a higher or lower chance?
Would you say there is a higher or lower chance?
It just seams like the odds of them being coincidence is very low as well.
Do you think like nick that I do not need to be tested for this incident alone.
I also wanted to add that the woman I met seemed to be on drugs. she asked my age from me 10 times and she seemed to forget what we had already talked about. I was just really drunk and also the following week stressed and my immune system could have been really weakened.
Do you think like nick that I do not need to be tested for this incident alone.
I also wanted to add that the woman I met seemed to be on drugs. she asked my age from me 10 times and she seemed to forget what we had already talked about. I was just really drunk and also the following week stressed and my immune system could have been really weakened.
You had no risk! Most people dont even get ARS, If the head of your penis was covered you have nothing to worry about. Symptoms mean nothing
What really worries me teak is my symptoms that are all not only like HIV but the correct timing of acute symptoms.
Thank you so much Nick. I feel so much better right now. Do you have any medical background? How is it that the virus can enter the blood from the penis head? Is my symptoms from anxiety and paranoia?
If it was not bleeding it was not a risk. Plus, even if it were bleeding (Which it wasnt) it would have to be a BIG open cut to pose a risk. Little sores like you mention start to heal right away from the inside out. Plus being days old. NO RISK
Thank you so much for your quick and comforting response. However I always assumed that an opening on the skin is a high risk activity. I was too drunk to realize when the condom slipped but it was hanging out when I took it out so yes. My main concern was the bruised skin what makes you rule that out?
Well forget about the bruse- that makes no difference to your risk, The big question is did the tip of your penis touch fluid? Usually when a condom slips off when withdrawling from a women the head of your penis stays covered the entire time. Exposing the shaft to fluid is not a risk for HIV and the bruse would not change the risk. If your penis head was covered then you had no risk and do not need testing.
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