Hi, I had a low risk exposure 7 weeks and now my anxiety is out of control in thinking of possible HIV infection.
Background information is I tested negative at 3 months before this risk and I have significant anxiety about HIV already.
Seven weeks again I performed unprotected fellatio on a hookup, and it was rough deep threat. It was rough oral sex and at one point I think I remember gagging and stomach acid coming up to my throat at one point. But he put his penis inside me for a second, or maybe a couple seconds & I told him I don't wanna do that because he doesn't have condoms and he relented. He ejaculated in my mouth and I quickly swallowed. Once leaving, I specifically remember have a sore throat, knowing he probed against the back of my threat awhile.
I continued to have a sore throats the next day & the day after day and I had it for two weeks. Then I woke up with a mild fever/ elevated temperature 14 days after this possible exposure. Then for 3/4days I experienced fatigue, headaches, continued sore throat & elevated temperature. My sore throats leading up to this was kinda dry, didn't really hurt & just felt like I just had to keep clearing it. I went to the doctor & he said it was a throat infection and I received antibiotics. After two/three days the antibiotics largely worked, the fever never returned and was only brief in that 3 days, and once my throat started getting better, I'd feel like a post nasal drip of muscus in back of my throat and only have two incidences of light night sweats at the end of it. And my sore throats never really didn't hurt or noticeably be in significant pain, it just felt at worst I need to moisture it and prevent it from being scratchy.
But meanwhile all of this, I had significant, unrelenting anxiety about HIV. A month after all of this, the fever-headache symptoms are gone but I think my severe anxiety manifested in recurring body aches and general fatigue starting once waking up. I would obsess over perceived HIV symptoms and then develop minor joint pains the next day. I developed a canker sore on the bottom of my lip and that just caused me more to obsess over HIV. I think my anxiety issues are causing perceived HIV symptoms.
I have a scheduled HIV test next week and the guy said he was HIV negative before & tested negative again while I started experiencing the first multiple symptoms.
I know oral sex is a low risk exposure and he tested negative amdist all this, I wanna believe this is all because of a throat infection from rough oral sex but the possibility of HIV infection is preventing me from living my life. I never had a rash, swollen lymph nodes, or intense muscle/joint aches. No diaherra or vomiting or fever above 100.
And this anxiety is causing my body to react in aches, canker sore because my panic is suppressing my immune system.
I'd appreciate your response, thank you.