HIV Scare....Can anyone help

[Sta17]

A few years ago I became seriously paranoid with my health. Everytime something doesn't seem right with my body I immediately thinks that I am going to die. The story is on the 27th of May I feel asleep forgotting to lock the back door. It never dawned on me until I awoke the following morning. That morning I woke up with a massive headache and couldn't really remember much about what happened that night. My husband was way (he's in the armed forces) and it was me and my two little ones at home. As soon as I realised that I left the door opened I immediately started thinking that someone must have come in and drugged me and raped me and that's the reason why I have a headache. Anyways a few weeks before that incident with me not looking my door, I purchased a sex toy. I washed the toy with bleach and soap on the day it was received and used it immediately (the sex toy was delivered the next day after ordering). A week after using the sex toy I developed vaginal itching and burning that lasted for about three weeks. I began thinking that maybe this toy was a used toy that was returned (the online company accepts returns) and I probably did not wash it properly enough or missed a few spots and now I have been infected with something (HIV). As soon as the itching/burning went away I came down with flu like symptoms and that was around the 24th of June. Now I have  itchy rashes on my face, back, trunk, legs, feet, and breast. These rashes looks like ringworm but I am not sure. I am scared to bits. I don't know what to do. Is it possible that I may have caught HIV from the sex toy.....is it possible that I was raped and I can't remember. After researching HIV, I realised that these are early symptoms. This fear is tearing my whole life apart and my kids can see it. Everytime my daughter sees me cry she starts crying too and I can't help it. Am I just being paranoid? Can someone please advise best. My husband and I have never been unfaithful...I have a solid marraige and a happy family and I feel like my silly mistakes are going to make me ruin it all. God...someone help me.

[manpaper]

As lizzie said your problem is psychological.

[LIZZIE LOU]

waking up with a headache made you think that someone came into your house, drugged you, and raped you?   i say this with sincere compassion...you need to seek professional mental help.

hiv is transmitted through...
unprotected vaginal / anal intercourse
sharing iv drug works
mother to child

hiv is not transmitted through inanimate objects.