I had many unprotected oral ecounters (more than 50) with my ex boyfriend (we were in a monogamous relationship for 1 year and a half). He never ejaculated inside of my mouth. We also had vaginal sex, always using protection, and I never noticed a condom failure, so I assume there were no risks there.
For the first 8 months of our relationship, we only had oral sex, but one time, during those 8 months I became very ill with all the ARS sympthoms (very high fever, a very swollen lymph node, muscle headache ache, night sweats, nasal congestion) etc. Everything excpet the rash. I went to the doctor becuase I thought I had ARS and he didn't test me due to "my low risk exposure".
I've seen in some of your posts that you say oral is not a risk for HIV, but then I see other HIV sites where they say oral is indeed a risk.
Do you think I have not had a risk? Do you think i should test? I am very scared of testing ....