Thank you teak, I truly appreciate!
That's it. Now I try my best to trust your evaluation even if it would be tempting to ask why and what if questions with more analysing.
As Teak said you didn't have a risk.
like would you advice testing because of this incident?
I somehow feel already stupid asking these things here and there. It's my health and my responsibility to take care of myself. Sometimes a man just needs to admit that somebody might know better. In that situation it was my duty to stop and take care of he's health as well. I guess.
Thanks for your response!
Yes I will and I need to. It's really hard though to get any help from public side and as an artist im not very rich as you can imagine. I've seen psychiatric nurse few times and will still meet her. I also really had to go even to psychiatric emergency because of panic attacks.
This other incident makes me worry again even though I try to be very objective and rational. Could you say something about that or the risk?
Well I know it's hard since you weren't there. I don't remember seen blood in my hands but im really don't remember so clearly.
Continue working on your OCD.