Basically I am a dancer I just started dancing not too long ago and rarely have sex last year In april my ex boyfriend who I loved and trusted told me he had herpes it was a deep time of depression for me and I haven't been able to bounce from it since. Since then I've coped with knowing herpes is really common so I've had protected sex and I rarely get out breaks but if I do I don't even kiss anyone in the mouth anymore. Bare with me this is extremely long and I need help simply because I have no where to turn too and it's a dark time..Any who I started dancing and have only been dancing a few months prior to that I met a guy I really liked Alot I disclosed me having herpes to him and he said it didn't matter and looked passed it we had sex with condoms always until one day it busted I've looked passed it but lately I've started to feel weird night sweats I don't have an appetite and I loose weight from not eating and I have a sore throat feeling in my mouth I've been to the doctor multiple times and it's always something else stomach problems bronchitis they did a spinal tap for my headaches and everything was fine. I was convinced I had HIV not to mention I went and got tested but came back negative both times I'm scared and I feel like my mental health is declining and my cognitive skills are off and I know the rapid isn't always accurate I've ran over the dates in my head even after we broke up I found a new person whom I care about deeply and have ONLY had sex protected...I've disclosed to him about my herpes too but not that I'm scared I could be walking around with both. ..what do I do something is wrong and I'm not getting any answers I know that if I'm positive I don't know how long the disease has to hide before detected please help and where do I turn. Thank you I'm only 20 and I feel like I'm at a breaking point all the comments help